Do you see the light? I do :D

I'm back! Finally :)

Yeah.. haha it's been too long to remember what had happened over the weeks, but i'm quite happy recently! Hehe. I see the light at the end of the tunnel now. All the trouble that i have forced myself through has taught me many valuable lessons. Yea man. My jugdement days shall come in feb though. The annoucement of 'O' level results and the annoucement of the result of my application to RP.

Been working at parkway parade these 3 days. Haha.. it's quite stress actually, to have to sell some wierd TV that's blur and has it's brand name crooked. (Not to mention all those quality n cheap LCDs around-_- ) I think my products are probably some factory rejects. Haha. but i don't mind though since some newly made friend there told me that the previous promoter quited after 3 months out of guilt because he could not sell any and his boss didn't blame him. lol. The co-workers there are really friendy too! Made friends with all of them..haha and helped them sell their products. ALMOST SOLD ONE LCD yesterday to some director of some H2O company. Wa kao. I should have asked him to pay by the counter first b4 i take out the goods.. he changed his mind after waiting too long for me to find the DVD recorder i pushed to him. Kaoz. But i sold one dvd recorder to him though :D and i provided him good service too and he gave me his name card and told me that i can work full time for him. Heh. I've got the name card of some bigger brother from Great Eastern too. Kinda sad.. for a part-timer in the finance sector, you need to be at least 21 years old. He and his colleagues are quite friendy too. Haha.. It's been great language (english, chinese and even hokkien!), presentation and confidence training as a promoter. :)

Hmm.. now that i've a job and doing fine with it, i'm feeling the drive to strive for more. Hope to be able to return to Pan Pacific hotel one day to work there again with some friends. My first job was there and i was utterly defeated due to inexperience and meeting some unfriendly co-workers who don't give a damn about me. :( It was mainly due to my social skills too though :(

Yeah so, these are my plans,step by step:

1.Work, earn $$
2.Learn more skills.
3.Train hard in ninja-do for defensive skills and fitness.
4.Get into RP, get scholarship and distinctions.
5.Make friends.
6.Make my parents proud.
7.To be able to both crush and save people's life. (long term spiritual goal)
8.To be able to contribute to the world. (hopefully. hehe)

Yeah. Been "debating" with my bro over the days the other time. (for hours.. 3+ hours straight in a day till we are both pissed at each other's ideology.. wth..) We could probably be able to publish a philosophy book together with all the conflicting thoughts, thesis and analogies. Any way we both agreed upon the importance of being able to choose. For me, it's to be able to choose to buy "luxury" and "signs" of social status but choose not to. To be able to crush a people's life or avenge myself but choose to save others instead. For me, i do not believe in following the society and i do not want to start believing in gods or religions. I shall seek enlightenment in all aspects and take heed from Buddhism(btw actually Buddhism is not a religion, it's an education. Ignorance and attachments over the centuries had changed many parts of buddhism). For these, i found my brother to be quite the opposite of me, hopefully we can make our parents proud and bring prestige to the "Su" family.

Ninja! 

Act dao :D 

Kitagaryu Ninjado 

Out exploring on my own in a boring afternoon. 

Ben's Bear... LoL 

Back at last.. New year loh! :D

Yea! I'm back to my shabby hut at last.. hehe.

Hmm.. had lots of stuff to blog initally.. buden forgot most of it and after visiting my Great grand senior's blog.. haha i don't feel like blogging the rest. :D Damn.. fragments of memories are lost forever.

Hmm.. I'm guess effort should be spent resolving issues instead of moaning about it (though it's always nice to vent it out). Ah well.. i guess i will try my best to reduce issues to trivial matters n not make a mountian out of a molehill.

Wow.. it's been almost a month since i last blogged. Yea.. as with the last blog. I've start.. only for awhile... heck. O well.. anyway started again recently. Wee! slight outline of my 8th pack can be seen! Hmm.. maybe i will buy protein powder in a few weeks.. the nutrition my bro and i get at home is terrible.

Been Missing In Action(MIA) quite a few times :( Missed the christmas countdown and the surprise visit to Ning's house yesterday. Haha.. but heard that it was quite comical. Hahaha.. Shan't blog down the embrassing stuff. Probably going to give the New Year countdown a miss too. Haiz.

Yea.. went to JB yest. wif WL n Neth. Hahaha... suppose to meet them at 1.30 in M'sia City Square Mac. buden we met only 2 hours later. Aghh... i mistook City Square as Ha Fu(?) street but it turned out to be a shopping centre. Agh.... Dressed like a mountian boar in s'pore.. go for shopping in m'sia, still dressed like a mountian boar. Hai. At least i didn't dress too shabbily. Wa kaoz... my phone couldn't call or recieve in overseas. At least finally manage to contact them and meet up(aft i had my lunch :P).

Yea.. didn't buy anything in JB but ate full meals! Wee! Hahaha... It's been quite long since i ate my fast foods. Damn. Didn't get to eat the local street food though. They are suppose to be really cheap n delicious.

Haha... found my Martial arts training quite useful. Hehe... it makes me feel safer when traveling alone and in ulu places. I know that at least i have a option to either fight or flight. If i can't win a fight, i can still run faster then a normal person. Felt great to travel on my own into Malaysia. It's been a long time since i felt so free (n carefree). Slung my bag over my shoulder, wore my $1 slippers, spiked my hair as usual, put on my contacts, grab the passport and im off. Weee! One pair of hairy legs on two slippers off to explore! Wee... Haha.

Yea. So... back to shopping. :D Brought my stuff back in S'pore instead. HahAhaha... Good recomandation by WL. Aghh! How could i forget that place? Haha. Matched an entire set of Clothing, Shirt, Pants and belt for $50. Weee! I like the look of it though it's abit 'over' for wearing to poly. haha.. im bad at fashion so i couldn't really describe how it looks :P. But it's the kind u would see in Orchard.. :) Damn.. didn't bring my MC adapter to Grandma's house with me to upload the new pictures i took.

Yea.. going back with WL tmr to swap my pants for a bigger size and maybe shop for shoes, clothes and necklace. It's been two years without new year clothes... i must get more this year for good luck!

Yea.. speaking of new year resolution.. haha.. it's about time i tink of one.. hmm maybe it will be like this:


1. GET INTO RP AND GET DISTINCTIONS!
2. GET A JOB!!! (zookeeper sort seems nicer :D hope to earn more though)
3. Get healthy!
4. Grow bigger and fitter(hmm maybe really have to turn to protein powder)
5. Dress nicely.
6. Keep parents happy and healthy.


Hmm.. that's all i can tink of now. Anyways, it's been a long and enjoyable year :) Learnt lots and met many ppl with all sorts of personalities. It's been a very enriching year. I have no regrets as to choosing this path: to stay a year to watch and learn, before starting over again. Wish to say THANKS!!! to all the kind and amiable ppl i met :)

Ah well.. back to academic stuff. Haiz. My Communication Toolkit lecturer suspected me of plagiarism and told me that i would most probably be called up for a meeting with the course leaders. WTF. Had no fear anyway since i did the work entirely by myself and wrote the report word by word except for quotations. When asked over the phone why am i suspected, she could only give me crap but the main issue is probably the english used in the report. Haha. :P maybe my english seemed too professional to come from a engineering student to her? Wee! Gave in lots of hardwork though. ;)

It's been quite cosy at home too. Everyone's at home during these windy nites. My bro and i are "brotherly" again... though there will always be an unspoken distance. Ah... all is well. Getting healthier. Hehe. Used to be always sick due to emotional stress. It's so much better now. I can't help but to worry for my bro though. My heart always aches when i tink *for* him.

Hmm.. that's all for tonite. :) Hope to get some great shopping tmr!

These pictures are taken from the official site. 

Clash of arms 

Ninja on the streets. 

Ninja 

Time to start.

It's sunday again and a new week starts tomorrow, another week into the future. It's quite an enjoyable week. :) Feeling driven to work towards my future now.

Ran/jog quite far yesterday. Ran to 888 plaza, Republic Poly., Marsiling Secondary, up the hill and down to woodlands stadium and round the futherest track once, back to CWP and home. It's a pity that i can't hold out till running up the hill before resting. Quite satisfied with myself but felt that i lost my mental battle though i won my physical one. Fitness has improved but still, i'm "lazy" to sprint-jog. Well at least not completely, didn't think of running that far initally.

Ninja-do was fun. Haha. Monday's training was headed by JinQuan and it's alot more interesting. We had sparring and a taupok session! Haha. Thursday was the best when we had a campus run. Hehe. We did the conventional situps(modified+ unmodified), pushups, jogging, sprinting, lunges and pullups. What was really fun was the unconventional training. Doing crescent kicks, axe kicks , duck walks, Yohatsu and frog jumps up the many stairs; dexterous jumps around the playground, canteen and everywhere where there's obstacles; windowing across obstacles and from heights; rolling and doing cartwheels across distances. Wee! We even climbed up a wall. Haha enjoyed the training. Loved to be out under the open nightsky and enjoy the breeze of the night air. Visited ninjado's offical website anyway and it spurred me on to train harder. Will attend ninjado trainings with a serious learning attitude from now on. Hope to get black belt within three years! :D Wanna wear the cool ninja black robe and shoes and wield the ninja sword(shorter then Katana and straight) Btw the site's www.ninjado.org.

Academically, i'm coping well. Haha.. but i've got to rush my assignments, as always. Hmm lecturers do make a big difference. The current tutors that i have are really two of the best, i have to say. With them, learning is much easier(even when im not around) and they are warm. Hehe. Hope to meet amiable elders like them over at RP. Anyways, started my pet bio-project 2 weeks ago but think i will have to re-do it to make the content more general, diversified and applicable. Hmm.. need to borrow stuff from Shan and Freddie then.

I'm quite sad about my situation in my current class now. Hah. Maybe people may start to think that i'm a bad student and that they should not mix with me. At least the lecturers know and sympathise with me. One seemed to be even angry FOR me, when one classmate seemed to say something undesirable about "what" happened during my "meeting" with the lecturers. Oh well. I will take this as a lesson and a challenge. I'll win back their hearts. Especially the china girls whom I was once quite friendly and close with. Whereas for Imm, i will tolerate his nonsense. Even Yz got pissed by him when he dao-ed him the other day. We shall see. Though i'm confident of letting him cry in pain any day, every day, i shan't resort to violence.

Played abit of pool with Wl and Yz on friday before chatting and strolling around with Wl. Haha. Chatted lots. Hmm.. chatted till nearly 10pm! Haha it's always nice to chat with him. Republic Poly was across the plain, infront of us as we chat. It gives a nice feeling to look at it under the night sky, with the fresh smelling night air blowing. It's beauteous.

I shall stop here with a defination of Ninja-do(from the offical site):

Nin- Tolerance, Patience and Perseverance
Ja - Cultivation of personal character
Do - Art of self-development and training

Hope to be a worthy of being called a Ninja one day. :)

Week Ends.

And so, the forth week has ended, forever. :D

Skipped Ninja-do on thursday because i was dismissed early and wasn't feeling healthy enough for a rewarding physical training. Went to Kenneth Aunt's Condo instead. It was grand. Played tennis half-naked in the sun and perspired away my flu. Soaked in Jaccuzis and went for a swim afterwards. As i laid, floating away on the reflected surface of the moon and castles around me, tranquility and hope invigorated me. I want my parents to enjoy such luxuries one day. I was lucky. I have friends who gave me these chances to be aweful and indulge in the luxury of seeing the moon as i laid on jaccuzi; play tennis in the sun and breathe with contentment. My parents, they might never get the chance to even chance their own eyes upon a tennis court nor dip their feet into a jaccuzi. Hais... can i do it? Will i make it?

Anyways, I had lots of fun. I guess all of us did. Haha, tennis' fun. It's better then badminton because i love breathing the open air and soaking in the sun.

Went over to thorn over night at Ben's house on Friday. It was quite lame. Everybody's mapling. Crap. Even my labtop was borrowed away for it. Wl got pissed and had a hard time pacifying him. Though i did not maple, his outburst brought me guilt. As i sat alone outside the room he locked himself in, I realised that i've done much wrong. I was arrogant, proud and spiteful. Though not much escaped from my lips, i felt bad. I must change. Wl's a special person but his quiet habit of bottling up his emotions makes other easy to go over the edge without noticing. Alas, i had spoken so much ill.

Met the Mechanical Engineering Course Manager, ME's Welfare manager, ME student's Year 1 manager and my own lecturer on friday too, with my dad. I wasn't frighten or nervious since i had good reasons and i've learnt how to explain myself and communicate. They were stern at first but as my reasons came through as logical and genuine to their reasoning, they became warm and friendly. The sternest of them all(and toppest), the Course Manager even joked about hoping that i will stay in ME. It brought laughs to the respectable elders and to me. I was deeply touched. Kindness does exist in this world, as proven once again. I was so be-spectacled till this year. Myopic i have been. Everything was near perfect, well explained and well recieved, except that i tear-ed. It's my "weakness". I can't help it when i'm touched. Tears started to well when my plaguing illness was mentioned and the kind response from the dear amiable elders.

Went to help out at my parent's shop afterwards when another kind lecturer called me to urge me to submit my assignment. I had completed it a week ago but i had forgotten about submitting it. So far, i have met quite a delightful number of kind lecturers. Kind souls teaching Com. Programming, EECAD, Maths, the Managers, Eltech, Autocad and Sports and Wellness official. It's true, embrace kindness and kindness shall embrace you.

Wasted Sat and woke up early today to tidy the house for ancestral workship. Ate quite alot of food because my uncle had thrown a buffet for my one-month old cousin. Haha, a slightly enjoyable day.

And so, week 4 has come to an end, without any homework done. Damn, work has piled up, guess i will be busy this week.

Read up Mechanical and Biotechnological reference books in the library which are beyond my level. Most probably i will choose to continue my path down biotechnology at RP. I have started my biotechnology pet project anyways. I see the outline of my letter and project in my mind's eye now. :)

Twisted my neck although my flu is cured. Damn.. Perhaps i will not be attending ninja-do tomorrow since i can't reap maximium benefit from time spent on training, i might as well spend it on clearing the pile of assignments.

Good night.

Update.

Hmm..I MUST USE PROPER ENGLISH!!

Ehem..

A long time it has been and so dusty has my little hut grown. to be :( Anyways.. its been two chalets, One Ubin chalet and one class chalet-cum-Neth's b.dae party and two boring weeks of school. I've learnt quite alot these weeks. Haha. Strangely, it's only been 10 days since the Birthday chalet. It feel like a month ago. Maybe it's the amount of changes and events that i've been through that made me feel so.

I had lots of stuff to blog but can't recall much since i'm down once again with some bug *yawn*. A brief recap recalled memories of writing 4 offical letters to lecturers, going to foreign classes, awkward moments in ex-class, some special occurrences with different people and two chats with lecturers.

Anyways, learnt alot about dealing with people, you, me, everybody. Chatted with the girls and some fellas whom i didn't really interact with in the past. Perhaps it's my disbelief in myself that had prevented me from all the things that i could do. Perhaps it's really what shackles all of us.

Drunk 1/2 bottle of red wine and bits of Volka during the chalet. Welcomed the heat and dizziness from the foreign substances. With swelled guts, i went on to help the situation when Kenneth was drunk and chatted on with my dear classmates. With a laziness stemming from my drowsiness, i shut out all the doubts about myself and hindering thoughts and did what i did from instincts and will. Glad to have did that. It was a valuable lesson. Anyways, had a really long chat with Nigel. It was enjoyable. Haha. I thought and analysed too much, so much that i was disorientated from natural instincts and empathy. Anyways, i was touched by the girls and some of the boy's reaction when they saw Yong Chuan. Ah F***. I guess he really have to see his grave before he will sob. Infact the anger shown by Sarah when she saw Yong Chuan smoking brought a slight sorrowness to me.. haha i wondered if she or others will feel this way for me too if i ever harm myself.

Anyways, the moral of the story is: Don't Hesitate. Close your judgemental eyes and move closer with your heart.

Haha. Short recount of stuff that happened:

Ubin chalet- Wet blanket everyone.
Class chalet- Enriching experience, was of help. Had fun playing soccer :D Wanna brush up soccer skills.
Wrote letters explaining absence. Very indirectly "suan" one lecturer in one of the replies. >:P
Caught up with all of the classes.
Borrowed a book on natural sciences and theoretical physics. Finished the physics book.
Waved good-bye to aeroplanes twice.
Went for two ninja-do trainings, skills are improving.

Chatted with lecturers.

Speaking of my chat with them, i learnt quite alot of stuff from them. Hmm. I hope to study Biotech in RP but my new lecturer dissuaded me. She told me that biotech is cramped with the "best of brains" and ultimately, theres not much rice bowl, true prosperity only laid ahead for those with PhD for Biotech and mind you, you need to get your degree and masters before you can get your PhD, which takes 5 years and extraordinary achievements to complete. Rockson's(a beng blogger) blog also mentioned it. Gosh, i thought alot but i guess i will stick to my plans. Engineering, on the other hand, seems to be pretty sunny to me. Hmm.. why didn't the government clarify about the prospects of biotech guaduates. Hmm.. i would like to see how " beautifully bloomed" the future biotech economy will be. If i chose this path, i will have to make sure that i will not get stuck as a technician.

Met my ex-classmates.

At least the girls are still quite friendly. F***.. why did i purposely chose to repeat the subject. Anyways stop considering about requesting to add back the modules that were automatically dropped when i repeat the two modules. The guys were quite alright too, except a few i guess. Hmm.. my instincts were right. Maybe i do have some insight into people's heart. They feigned ignorance when i waved at them the other day. Nevermind. I have my CCA guys with me. 5 to 3. I have not lost my pride, i was not lonely in spite of their rejection. I guess i can't blame anyone if they were to start to think negetively of me, since i'm repeating two modules and disappearing for no apparent reasons. FREAK! I can't be a perfectionalist now too, since i'm pushing back two modules. At least i better and did futher than them for similar subjects and communicated with lecturers and new module mates. Thus, i could not be considered "pathetic" and "irresponsible". Hope to tighten the friendship with two of the quieter guys and three girls.

Gained some insight from my father's story too. Haha. Lots of lessons to learn from these weeks, hope to be able to digest them. I feel much more ready now. One year was not spent in vain.

Haha. At least i have my polians around me. Damn, can't thorn overnight at Ben's house. Meeting lecturer with dad on friday to explain my absence. Hah.. oh well. Another chance to learn.

Another 57.5 hours to weekends! :D Haha.. my BFB( big fat bundle of joy) is one month old on saturday. Looking forward to good food!

Conclusion

Finally the exams are over... Phew.

Kinda disappointing today. I wasted lots of time by not skipping through questions. Lost a minimum of 16 marks today. Forgot the formula for Cosine Rule.. 8 marks gone, forgot another, 6 marks gone. Freak man. They were the first part of the two questions, everything is literally derived from them. Damn. 11 marks down the drain. There's a really slim chance of getting A1 now. Hai.

Anywaes.. I'm going for 2 chalets at one go! Wee! One's at Ubin and the other's at coasta sands. Damn.. have to complete some of two week's worth of assignment before i go. Hope to have fun!

Haix... dunno wad's up. Is it my fault or my bro's. From all angles that i see, he should reflect on how he treats his family members. Almost got into a violent encounter.. I backed off as usual. I don't want the knife in my hands to end up in either of our intestines. Looks like i really have brush up my knife defense skills and joint locks. You get to use it only once. I wouldn't want to get jailed for standing up for myself or my parents.