Welcome into my Shabby Hut

Do you see the light? I do :D

2006-01-23T11:51:00.000+08:00

I'm back! Finally :)

Yeah.. haha it's been too long to remember what had happened over the weeks, but i'm quite happy recently! Hehe. I see the light at the end of the tunnel now. All the trouble that i have forced myself through has taught me many valuable lessons. Yea man. My jugdement days shall come in feb though. The annoucement of 'O' level results and the annoucement of the result of my application to RP.

Been working at parkway parade these 3 days. Haha.. it's quite stress actually, to have to sell some wierd TV that's blur and has it's brand name crooked. (Not to mention all those quality n cheap LCDs around-_- ) I think my products are probably some factory rejects. Haha. but i don't mind though since some newly made friend there told me that the previous promoter quited after 3 months out of guilt because he could not sell any and his boss didn't blame him. lol. The co-workers there are really friendy too! Made friends with all of them..haha and helped them sell their products. ALMOST SOLD ONE LCD yesterday to some director of some H2O company. Wa kao. I should have asked him to pay by the counter first b4 i take out the goods.. he changed his mind after waiting too long for me to find the DVD recorder i pushed to him. Kaoz. But i sold one dvd recorder to him though :D and i provided him good service too and he gave me his name card and told me that i can work full time for him. Heh. I've got the name card of some bigger brother from Great Eastern too. Kinda sad.. for a part-timer in the finance sector, you need to be at least 21 years old. He and his colleagues are quite friendy too. Haha.. It's been great language (english, chinese and even hokkien!), presentation and confidence training as a promoter. :)

Hmm.. now that i've a job and doing fine with it, i'm feeling the drive to strive for more. Hope to be able to return to Pan Pacific hotel one day to work there again with some friends. My first job was there and i was utterly defeated due to inexperience and meeting some unfriendly co-workers who don't give a damn about me. :( It was mainly due to my social skills too though :(

Yeah so, these are my plans,step by step:

1.Work, earn $$
2.Learn more skills.
3.Train hard in ninja-do for defensive skills and fitness.
4.Get into RP, get scholarship and distinctions.
5.Make friends.
6.Make my parents proud.
7.To be able to both crush and save people's life. (long term spiritual goal)
8.To be able to contribute to the world. (hopefully. hehe)

Yeah. Been "debating" with my bro over the days the other time. (for hours.. 3+ hours straight in a day till we are both pissed at each other's ideology.. wth..) We could probably be able to publish a philosophy book together with all the conflicting thoughts, thesis and analogies. Any way we both agreed upon the importance of being able to choose. For me, it's to be able to choose to buy "luxury" and "signs" of social status but choose not to. To be able to crush a people's life or avenge myself but choose to save others instead. For me, i do not believe in following the society and i do not want to start believing in gods or religions. I shall seek enlightenment in all aspects and take heed from Buddhism(btw actually Buddhism is not a religion, it's an education. Ignorance and attachments over the centuries had changed many parts of buddhism). For these, i found my brother to be quite the opposite of me, hopefully we can make our parents proud and bring prestige to the "Su" family.

2006-01-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

Ninja!

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Act dao :D

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Kitagaryu Ninjado

2006-01-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

Out exploring on my own in a boring afternoon.

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Ben's Bear... LoL

Back at last.. New year loh! :D

2005-12-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

Yea! I'm back to my shabby hut at last.. hehe.

Hmm.. had lots of stuff to blog initally.. buden forgot most of it and after visiting my Great grand senior's blog.. haha i don't feel like blogging the rest. :D Damn.. fragments of memories are lost forever.

Hmm.. I'm guess effort should be spent resolving issues instead of moaning about it (though it's always nice to vent it out). Ah well.. i guess i will try my best to reduce issues to trivial matters n not make a mountian out of a molehill.

Wow.. it's been almost a month since i last blogged. Yea.. as with the last blog. I've start.. only for awhile... heck. O well.. anyway started again recently. Wee! slight outline of my 8th pack can be seen! Hmm.. maybe i will buy protein powder in a few weeks.. the nutrition my bro and i get at home is terrible.

Been Missing In Action(MIA) quite a few times :( Missed the christmas countdown and the surprise visit to Ning's house yesterday. Haha.. but heard that it was quite comical. Hahaha.. Shan't blog down the embrassing stuff. Probably going to give the New Year countdown a miss too. Haiz.

Yea.. went to JB yest. wif WL n Neth. Hahaha... suppose to meet them at 1.30 in M'sia City Square Mac. buden we met only 2 hours later. Aghh... i mistook City Square as Ha Fu(?) street but it turned out to be a shopping centre. Agh.... Dressed like a mountian boar in s'pore.. go for shopping in m'sia, still dressed like a mountian boar. Hai. At least i didn't dress too shabbily. Wa kaoz... my phone couldn't call or recieve in overseas. At least finally manage to contact them and meet up(aft i had my lunch :P).

Yea.. didn't buy anything in JB but ate full meals! Wee! Hahaha... It's been quite long since i ate my fast foods. Damn. Didn't get to eat the local street food though. They are suppose to be really cheap n delicious.

Haha... found my Martial arts training quite useful. Hehe... it makes me feel safer when traveling alone and in ulu places. I know that at least i have a option to either fight or flight. If i can't win a fight, i can still run faster then a normal person. Felt great to travel on my own into Malaysia. It's been a long time since i felt so free (n carefree). Slung my bag over my shoulder, wore my $1 slippers, spiked my hair as usual, put on my contacts, grab the passport and im off. Weee! One pair of hairy legs on two slippers off to explore! Wee... Haha.

Yea. So... back to shopping. :D Brought my stuff back in S'pore instead. HahAhaha... Good recomandation by WL. Aghh! How could i forget that place? Haha. Matched an entire set of Clothing, Shirt, Pants and belt for $50. Weee! I like the look of it though it's abit 'over' for wearing to poly. haha.. im bad at fashion so i couldn't really describe how it looks :P. But it's the kind u would see in Orchard.. :) Damn.. didn't bring my MC adapter to Grandma's house with me to upload the new pictures i took.

Yea.. going back with WL tmr to swap my pants for a bigger size and maybe shop for shoes, clothes and necklace. It's been two years without new year clothes... i must get more this year for good luck!

Yea.. speaking of new year resolution.. haha.. it's about time i tink of one.. hmm maybe it will be like this:

1. GET INTO RP AND GET DISTINCTIONS!
2. GET A JOB!!! (zookeeper sort seems nicer :D hope to earn more though)
3. Get healthy!
4. Grow bigger and fitter(hmm maybe really have to turn to protein powder)
5. Dress nicely.
6. Keep parents happy and healthy.

Hmm.. that's all i can tink of now. Anyways, it's been a long and enjoyable year :) Learnt lots and met many ppl with all sorts of personalities. It's been a very enriching year. I have no regrets as to choosing this path: to stay a year to watch and learn, before starting over again. Wish to say THANKS!!! to all the kind and amiable ppl i met :)

Ah well.. back to academic stuff. Haiz. My Communication Toolkit lecturer suspected me of plagiarism and told me that i would most probably be called up for a meeting with the course leaders. WTF. Had no fear anyway since i did the work entirely by myself and wrote the report word by word except for quotations. When asked over the phone why am i suspected, she could only give me crap but the main issue is probably the english used in the report. Haha. :P maybe my english seemed too professional to come from a engineering student to her? Wee! Gave in lots of hardwork though. ;)

It's been quite cosy at home too. Everyone's at home during these windy nites. My bro and i are "brotherly" again... though there will always be an unspoken distance. Ah... all is well. Getting healthier. Hehe. Used to be always sick due to emotional stress. It's so much better now. I can't help but to worry for my bro though. My heart always aches when i tink *for* him.

Hmm.. that's all for tonite. :) Hope to get some great shopping tmr!

2005-12-04T14:59:00.000+08:00

These pictures are taken from the official site.

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Clash of arms

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Ninja on the streets.

2005-12-04T14:53:00.000+08:00

Ninja

Time to start.

2005-12-04T13:33:00.000+08:00

It's sunday again and a new week starts tomorrow, another week into the future. It's quite an enjoyable week. :) Feeling driven to work towards my future now.

Ran/jog quite far yesterday. Ran to 888 plaza, Republic Poly., Marsiling Secondary, up the hill and down to woodlands stadium and round the futherest track once, back to CWP and home. It's a pity that i can't hold out till running up the hill before resting. Quite satisfied with myself but felt that i lost my mental battle though i won my physical one. Fitness has improved but still, i'm "lazy" to sprint-jog. Well at least not completely, didn't think of running that far initally.

Ninja-do was fun. Haha. Monday's training was headed by JinQuan and it's alot more interesting. We had sparring and a taupok session! Haha. Thursday was the best when we had a campus run. Hehe. We did the conventional situps(modified+ unmodified), pushups, jogging, sprinting, lunges and pullups. What was really fun was the unconventional training. Doing crescent kicks, axe kicks , duck walks, Yohatsu and frog jumps up the many stairs; dexterous jumps around the playground, canteen and everywhere where there's obstacles; windowing across obstacles and from heights; rolling and doing cartwheels across distances. Wee! We even climbed up a wall. Haha enjoyed the training. Loved to be out under the open nightsky and enjoy the breeze of the night air. Visited ninjado's offical website anyway and it spurred me on to train harder. Will attend ninjado trainings with a serious learning attitude from now on. Hope to get black belt within three years! :D Wanna wear the cool ninja black robe and shoes and wield the ninja sword(shorter then Katana and straight) Btw the site's www.ninjado.org.

Academically, i'm coping well. Haha.. but i've got to rush my assignments, as always. Hmm lecturers do make a big difference. The current tutors that i have are really two of the best, i have to say. With them, learning is much easier(even when im not around) and they are warm. Hehe. Hope to meet amiable elders like them over at RP. Anyways, started my pet bio-project 2 weeks ago but think i will have to re-do it to make the content more general, diversified and applicable. Hmm.. need to borrow stuff from Shan and Freddie then.

I'm quite sad about my situation in my current class now. Hah. Maybe people may start to think that i'm a bad student and that they should not mix with me. At least the lecturers know and sympathise with me. One seemed to be even angry FOR me, when one classmate seemed to say something undesirable about "what" happened during my "meeting" with the lecturers. Oh well. I will take this as a lesson and a challenge. I'll win back their hearts. Especially the china girls whom I was once quite friendly and close with. Whereas for Imm, i will tolerate his nonsense. Even Yz got pissed by him when he dao-ed him the other day. We shall see. Though i'm confident of letting him cry in pain any day, every day, i shan't resort to violence.

Played abit of pool with Wl and Yz on friday before chatting and strolling around with Wl. Haha. Chatted lots. Hmm.. chatted till nearly 10pm! Haha it's always nice to chat with him. Republic Poly was across the plain, infront of us as we chat. It gives a nice feeling to look at it under the night sky, with the fresh smelling night air blowing. It's beauteous.

I shall stop here with a defination of Ninja-do(from the offical site):

Nin- Tolerance, Patience and Perseverance
Ja - Cultivation of personal character
Do - Art of self-development and training

Hope to be a worthy of being called a Ninja one day. :)

Week Ends.

2005-11-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

And so, the forth week has ended, forever. :D

Skipped Ninja-do on thursday because i was dismissed early and wasn't feeling healthy enough for a rewarding physical training. Went to Kenneth Aunt's Condo instead. It was grand. Played tennis half-naked in the sun and perspired away my flu. Soaked in Jaccuzis and went for a swim afterwards. As i laid, floating away on the reflected surface of the moon and castles around me, tranquility and hope invigorated me. I want my parents to enjoy such luxuries one day. I was lucky. I have friends who gave me these chances to be aweful and indulge in the luxury of seeing the moon as i laid on jaccuzi; play tennis in the sun and breathe with contentment. My parents, they might never get the chance to even chance their own eyes upon a tennis court nor dip their feet into a jaccuzi. Hais... can i do it? Will i make it?

Anyways, I had lots of fun. I guess all of us did. Haha, tennis' fun. It's better then badminton because i love breathing the open air and soaking in the sun.

Went over to thorn over night at Ben's house on Friday. It was quite lame. Everybody's mapling. Crap. Even my labtop was borrowed away for it. Wl got pissed and had a hard time pacifying him. Though i did not maple, his outburst brought me guilt. As i sat alone outside the room he locked himself in, I realised that i've done much wrong. I was arrogant, proud and spiteful. Though not much escaped from my lips, i felt bad. I must change. Wl's a special person but his quiet habit of bottling up his emotions makes other easy to go over the edge without noticing. Alas, i had spoken so much ill.

Met the Mechanical Engineering Course Manager, ME's Welfare manager, ME student's Year 1 manager and my own lecturer on friday too, with my dad. I wasn't frighten or nervious since i had good reasons and i've learnt how to explain myself and communicate. They were stern at first but as my reasons came through as logical and genuine to their reasoning, they became warm and friendly. The sternest of them all(and toppest), the Course Manager even joked about hoping that i will stay in ME. It brought laughs to the respectable elders and to me. I was deeply touched. Kindness does exist in this world, as proven once again. I was so be-spectacled till this year. Myopic i have been. Everything was near perfect, well explained and well recieved, except that i tear-ed. It's my "weakness". I can't help it when i'm touched. Tears started to well when my plaguing illness was mentioned and the kind response from the dear amiable elders.

Went to help out at my parent's shop afterwards when another kind lecturer called me to urge me to submit my assignment. I had completed it a week ago but i had forgotten about submitting it. So far, i have met quite a delightful number of kind lecturers. Kind souls teaching Com. Programming, EECAD, Maths, the Managers, Eltech, Autocad and Sports and Wellness official. It's true, embrace kindness and kindness shall embrace you.

Wasted Sat and woke up early today to tidy the house for ancestral workship. Ate quite alot of food because my uncle had thrown a buffet for my one-month old cousin. Haha, a slightly enjoyable day.

And so, week 4 has come to an end, without any homework done. Damn, work has piled up, guess i will be busy this week.

Read up Mechanical and Biotechnological reference books in the library which are beyond my level. Most probably i will choose to continue my path down biotechnology at RP. I have started my biotechnology pet project anyways. I see the outline of my letter and project in my mind's eye now. :)

Twisted my neck although my flu is cured. Damn.. Perhaps i will not be attending ninja-do tomorrow since i can't reap maximium benefit from time spent on training, i might as well spend it on clearing the pile of assignments.

Good night.

Update.

2005-11-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm..I MUST USE PROPER ENGLISH!!

Ehem..

A long time it has been and so dusty has my little hut grown. to be :( Anyways.. its been two chalets, One Ubin chalet and one class chalet-cum-Neth's b.dae party and two boring weeks of school. I've learnt quite alot these weeks. Haha. Strangely, it's only been 10 days since the Birthday chalet. It feel like a month ago. Maybe it's the amount of changes and events that i've been through that made me feel so.

I had lots of stuff to blog but can't recall much since i'm down once again with some bug *yawn*. A brief recap recalled memories of writing 4 offical letters to lecturers, going to foreign classes, awkward moments in ex-class, some special occurrences with different people and two chats with lecturers.

Anyways, learnt alot about dealing with people, you, me, everybody. Chatted with the girls and some fellas whom i didn't really interact with in the past. Perhaps it's my disbelief in myself that had prevented me from all the things that i could do. Perhaps it's really what shackles all of us.

Drunk 1/2 bottle of red wine and bits of Volka during the chalet. Welcomed the heat and dizziness from the foreign substances. With swelled guts, i went on to help the situation when Kenneth was drunk and chatted on with my dear classmates. With a laziness stemming from my drowsiness, i shut out all the doubts about myself and hindering thoughts and did what i did from instincts and will. Glad to have did that. It was a valuable lesson. Anyways, had a really long chat with Nigel. It was enjoyable. Haha. I thought and analysed too much, so much that i was disorientated from natural instincts and empathy. Anyways, i was touched by the girls and some of the boy's reaction when they saw Yong Chuan. Ah F***. I guess he really have to see his grave before he will sob. Infact the anger shown by Sarah when she saw Yong Chuan smoking brought a slight sorrowness to me.. haha i wondered if she or others will feel this way for me too if i ever harm myself.

Anyways, the moral of the story is: Don't Hesitate. Close your judgemental eyes and move closer with your heart.

Haha. Short recount of stuff that happened:

Ubin chalet- Wet blanket everyone.
Class chalet- Enriching experience, was of help. Had fun playing soccer :D Wanna brush up soccer skills.
Wrote letters explaining absence. Very indirectly "suan" one lecturer in one of the replies. >:P
Caught up with all of the classes.
Borrowed a book on natural sciences and theoretical physics. Finished the physics book.
Waved good-bye to aeroplanes twice.
Went for two ninja-do trainings, skills are improving.

Chatted with lecturers.

Speaking of my chat with them, i learnt quite alot of stuff from them. Hmm. I hope to study Biotech in RP but my new lecturer dissuaded me. She told me that biotech is cramped with the "best of brains" and ultimately, theres not much rice bowl, true prosperity only laid ahead for those with PhD for Biotech and mind you, you need to get your degree and masters before you can get your PhD, which takes 5 years and extraordinary achievements to complete. Rockson's(a beng blogger) blog also mentioned it. Gosh, i thought alot but i guess i will stick to my plans. Engineering, on the other hand, seems to be pretty sunny to me. Hmm.. why didn't the government clarify about the prospects of biotech guaduates. Hmm.. i would like to see how " beautifully bloomed" the future biotech economy will be. If i chose this path, i will have to make sure that i will not get stuck as a technician.

Met my ex-classmates.

At least the girls are still quite friendly. F***.. why did i purposely chose to repeat the subject. Anyways stop considering about requesting to add back the modules that were automatically dropped when i repeat the two modules. The guys were quite alright too, except a few i guess. Hmm.. my instincts were right. Maybe i do have some insight into people's heart. They feigned ignorance when i waved at them the other day. Nevermind. I have my CCA guys with me. 5 to 3. I have not lost my pride, i was not lonely in spite of their rejection. I guess i can't blame anyone if they were to start to think negetively of me, since i'm repeating two modules and disappearing for no apparent reasons. FREAK! I can't be a perfectionalist now too, since i'm pushing back two modules. At least i better and did futher than them for similar subjects and communicated with lecturers and new module mates. Thus, i could not be considered "pathetic" and "irresponsible". Hope to tighten the friendship with two of the quieter guys and three girls.

Gained some insight from my father's story too. Haha. Lots of lessons to learn from these weeks, hope to be able to digest them. I feel much more ready now. One year was not spent in vain.

Haha. At least i have my polians around me. Damn, can't thorn overnight at Ben's house. Meeting lecturer with dad on friday to explain my absence. Hah.. oh well. Another chance to learn.

Another 57.5 hours to weekends! :D Haha.. my BFB( big fat bundle of joy) is one month old on saturday. Looking forward to good food!

Conclusion

2005-11-11T12:18:00.000+08:00

Finally the exams are over... Phew.

Kinda disappointing today. I wasted lots of time by not skipping through questions. Lost a minimum of 16 marks today. Forgot the formula for Cosine Rule.. 8 marks gone, forgot another, 6 marks gone. Freak man. They were the first part of the two questions, everything is literally derived from them. Damn. 11 marks down the drain. There's a really slim chance of getting A1 now. Hai.

Anywaes.. I'm going for 2 chalets at one go! Wee! One's at Ubin and the other's at coasta sands. Damn.. have to complete some of two week's worth of assignment before i go. Hope to have fun!

Haix... dunno wad's up. Is it my fault or my bro's. From all angles that i see, he should reflect on how he treats his family members. Almost got into a violent encounter.. I backed off as usual. I don't want the knife in my hands to end up in either of our intestines. Looks like i really have brush up my knife defense skills and joint locks. You get to use it only once. I wouldn't want to get jailed for standing up for myself or my parents.

English exam's finally over!

2005-11-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

Yes!

Phew... it's a relief now that my english exam is over. Hah. Left with E.maths paper two. =]

Haha. I find the exams quite easy.. but i shan't hope too much, at least a B3 and a A2 for my english and e.maths respectively will put a straight smile across my face. Woah. The unrational stress i gave myself almost killed me and the trips to the toilet had a serious impact on my health man. Woot! I'm glad that they are finally over.

Hmm.. as for English, i overwrote for my speech and only spent 30mins on my compo. Freak! That's half the time i allocated for my compo and twice the length i intended for my speech. Agh. Nevertheless i guess i can score on content. Hopefully my hastily piece of work isn't a masterpiece of grammar mistakes. XD Hah. This is the first time i wrote everything that came to my mind without much consideration. Haha.. wrote so fast that my hand's black from the unabsorbed ink. =] Haha. Kinda proud too, about my neat and tidy peices of work with improved handwriting. :D

Sad to know that Ninja-do is srinking too. F***. I don't know what to say and from what i see, i'm part angry and part depressed. I guess i'm not in the position to say much. Poor JQ. Hmm.. maybe i should pop by tommorow? I'm not confident of securing a good E.maths paper two result on friday though.

Anyway, I lack the mastery over myself. I'm still defeated by myself; I lack discipline and control over my emotions. At least i'm quite lucky to be able to complete the exams without much difficulties. So much for "preparations" and "determination".

Reading through my sec 3 and 4 compositions, i recalled lots of memories. From a hindsight, I understood myself better. I was right in my decision. My different compos of different topics, they all point towards one thing, Me; my mental processes and emotions. My Sec 1 & 2 class journals, my BLOODY creative compostions and my convincing stories, they are my heritage from my past.

Writing topic 4, "Career" as my topic for the re-examinations, i envisioned my path now. It seemed to have came subconsciously and thus, my speed and proficency in writing it. I know what i seek now. I see it.

Weee. My bro went to "chionging" today. Haha it means night clubbing. Freak. I dunno what will happen. Well. Hope he will have fun!

2005-11-02T13:09:00.000+08:00

Haix.

Feeling sad.

Pon school liaox.

So much for all the travelling and ticket fare. Things have to be done or get over with quickly. Going home to start my revision now.

Haix.

Hmm.. i think i'm always displaying signs of depression... hah.

Anywaes... interesting link. Kinda vulgar although it does give insight into politics and some interesting stuffs. :)

http://rockson.blogspot.com/

Wee! I've got a hairy n fat bundle of joy! Hahahaha!

2005-10-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha. The tittle says it all! There's a new baby in the family! Weee!

She's early by a week but she's already having a healthy weight of 3.03 Kg! Haha. She's got lots of hair too.. that's why her dear loving cousin is proud to give her her first nick name! Jia Ying, the fat and hairy bundle of joy! (Aka FHB.) :D

Haha. It's double happiness for the Su family cause it's my grandpa's b.dae on Sunday and now my little FHB's going to crash the party n rock the house down with his chubby cuteness! Agghhhh! Kawaii neh!! Haha :D Woops i keep forgeting it's a she.. haha Her appearance is kinda decieving.. Haha. Hmm.. being a female makes her even cuter! (even though that doesn't change her appearance *SiGniFiCanTly*.) :D

Yea! So it's LOTS of GOOOOOOOOD food n a hairy bundle of joy to play with on sundae! Haha. Weee! I'm feeling so happy for my uncle... *sniff sniff* Finally he's a dad. Ughh... now i have to start to pay back all the bills he helped me to pay.. hahaha.. but it's alright! I'm still happy for him! Hahaha :D Man. My uncle's a really louya dad. Hahaha.. his little FHB really took him by surprise :) So sweettt.... :)

Haha anywae this is the reasoning behind her name(thought up by 5th uncle):
Eh. Our family got one Su Ying Ying(my one). Family name: Su = Lose. No good. So we must Win back, so put 2 Ying Ying = Win Win. Lose + Win + Win= Win. Waaa i like! Hmm..

Second youngest baby: Su Jia Yuan(not my one): Jia Yuan = Family union. Very good. Yuan Yuan Man Man = Su family peaceful n safe.. Hmm.. good good.

Now for FHB(new one): Hmm.. Eh... checked auspicious book... 30 strokes good! Eh? Wa steady! Just nice Su Jia Ying... 30 strokes! Meaning also very solid! Su family win! WAaAahahahahaha!! I so smart! WAhaHAHahaha!!!

Hahaha. Actually the above crap is written by me la.. hahahaha :D Buden i guess the theory behind Su Jia Ying is like that. Haha. Su Jia Ying. Su family win! Haha! I like!

Hmm.. i'm still sick.. i'll have to distance myself from my little FHB... :( Haha. But what's most important is that my uncle finally get to carry his little bundle of love. :D

Hmm.. now for a recount of wad happened this week.

Mon- Went for ninja-do! Weee! Shit. I gave my senior a bloody nose( his nose too sensitive not i not gentle.. haha *ehem* btw alot of ppl say i gentlemen hor. Haha :>) Den injured my great grand senior's (ggs) girlfren (eh, i block only.. she kick n injure herself one not me!) Den did quite a bit of block n attacking with hands wif my ggs. Wee! It was fun! Haha. Overheard him mentioning to my sensitive nose senior that i'm one of the fastest puncher he saw while i was chatting wif ggs' girlfren. haha. Weee!

Tues- Nose n throat infection finally start to take it's toll. Put wl, yz, nerd, sn, ct on aeroplane! Weee! Hahaha... noooo

Wed- Bad karma from ps-ing too many ppl. Caught flu from bro. Woke up with high fever.

Thurs- Manage to recover. Brought Ben, Nerd n Chih for a haircut at my uncle's saloon! haha. Got myself one too :D.

Fri- Today. Other then tinking of a nick for new family member, i slacked n played game for the whole day :D (Must create phobia of games so that i wun flunk o level again becuz of one louya game) Haha.

Yea. That's it for this week! Feeling kinda thankful too because i'm feeling lucky.. got new testimonials out of the blue (or shoe as MT use to say..haha) n dunno? :) feeling so happy for my uncle. haha.

Good Nite! Swit dreams!

Gosh! School's starting next week! Nooo!

Reflections

2005-10-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

Yeah. I'm back :)

School's reopening soon, so are my exams!

*Ehem* I must brush up my standard of english.

Woah.

Hmm.. It's my brother's birthday tommorow. It's a dilemma. My family never celebrate birthdays. My brother is having his examinations soon. I could see that he requires some family warmth. So do I. I guess it's been this way for a decade. Just had a "confrontation" with him two days ago. Well, at least i've grown to be able to protect myself now, with age and martial arts, else it would probably end up as it use to be- Violence, death. Ironically, it was the day i'm suppose to be out having fun with the others in a KTV outing. Oh well. At least i've made things better in the family. This ''orphan" who just had to leave for his safety managed to return after 5 years to consciously make things happen.

Reflecting back to the sec sch days, i guess i must have been a "wierdo". As Siew fong put it, i like to ask "wierd stuff" like philosophy. Well, can't blame me. Haha. I'm glad that i've changed alot within this.. 10 months? More has yet to come. It all seemed to be a dream. Only a mere 7 months has passed since the YJC days. The winding paths i've travelled, it seemed so far. I'm glad that everyone's still seem to be where they were. It's quite a relief to know that certain things hasn't change.

Ok. Back to the present.

Just realised that i haven't pay my education fees. Woo! That probably means that i've got a choice to withdraw from this semester. Yea. Hmm. Compared my timetable with bigger head(yz). My timetable consists of 8 hours of repeated modules and 14 hours of new modules. Cool. But Yz has a total of 28 hours of new modules. So wtf am i doing, wasting one semester and education fees when i'm striving to enter another poly and course? However, on the otherhand, if i decide to withdraw, i'm putting all my eggs in one basket. If Republic decides not to accept me(wtf?) nor my project, that's it. I can prepare myself for the army and forget the endless ambitions i hold.

Anywae, the exams are coming. I've to really polish my english and start practising my maths. I've faith though but not my parents. :(

Good bye.

2005-10-17T17:32:00.000+08:00

Wazzup?

Metamorphosis

2005-10-17T05:20:00.000+08:00

I'm back :)

Went for chalet over the weekend. Quite an ....ok chalet. Had some catching up with the others :) Hmm.. my bic skills improved! Hehe.

Haha.. Chingting xiao mei mei has grown cuter den ever. Haha. Everyone's very much the same. Hmm. Tink i changed the most, juz as Ting xiao mei mentioned. Stupid big head still as lame as ever. Aghhh... dun fart infront of me.. else i stuff banana up your *ss.

Hehe. Declared all the crushes i had during the chat under the full moon, by the rolling sea, during truth or dare. Haha.. i was so horny last time. Hehe. The numbers dropped from 10 to 0 now. :D So stop accusing me of being horny. Haha. Hmm.. seriously. GBR's not for me.

Slept for 18 hours yesterday. Mmm..

Hmm.. i tink i know wad happened. Had another "Ghost Press" yesterday. They weren't ghost press. I think i know what's happening. I feel energy surges whenever they happened. Felt fearful yesterday though, thus breaking the immoblization withing 10 secs or so. My body seemed to vibrate from within(not from muscluar contraction) and the energy surges whenever i tried some "tricks". Muhahaha... getting to like the experience.

Finally. My whole family's at home today and so, i'm forsaking Ninja-do for a family day today. :)
Hmm. A few wierd things are happening. I dreamt of shopping at some "budget" shop after some enjoyable traveling in the bright and wonderful sunlight. Is it Malaysia? Hmm. Dreamt of wanting to buy a white wafer type of biscuit in my dream and soyabean. Wa.. i was so happy. Cheap and yummy food! Haha. Woke up from the dream to find the "rare" treats! Hehe. Hmm.. is something happening to me?

My current situation and my 'dreams'/ aspirations- Haix. Things are abit confusing. Hope my father's going to be alright. I have the will.

If only some phobia/ sickness will go away. Agh.

Watching Elva's MTV makes me sweat and my heart, weak at times. Haha. It's not infatuation or some opp. sex attraction. It's hard to explain. Haha. Let's just say she's the embodiment of my hopes, aspirations and fantasies. (No. Shan. Not hentai)

Hope everything fares well!

It's going to be a really busy semester. Personal biotech project(for RP), 'O' levels, Ninja-do performance, 38+/- hour weeks and personal "extra" stuff.

2005-10-09T15:39:00.000+08:00

Freedom!

2005-10-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

Smile :D

2005-10-09T15:36:00.000+08:00

Wazzup?

2005-10-09T15:35:00.000+08:00

Hehe

2005-10-09T15:34:00.000+08:00

Waa....

Elva! Elva! Elva!

2005-10-09T06:28:00.000+08:00

Hahaha.. slacked so much these days..

Didn't go for the night exploration trip with the flash-a-holics yesterday! So decided to explore on my today! Hahaha.. loved the warmth of the sun, the freedom of space, the air, the nature and simplicity. Aiya. Didn't bring the MCC extension card with me. Too bad. Can't update the pictures. :)

Having i'm having a fun time blogging while watching MTV! Haha.. Downloaded lots of them these days. My new idol is Elva! Haha. She's so sweet and she dances really well! Haha. I'm not horny k? She's really sweet and comparitively very simple and natural compared to the other celebrities. Haha. I like. I like! She kinda radiates enthu-ness and inspires hope. :D Feel sad though.. I have to get the efforts of someone i respect by underhand methods. Hai. No cashy... :(

Agh.. the itch.. Climbed down a 75'' slope that's taller then me. Had to climb backwards barefooted due to the dense vegetation.

MmmMmm!! Elva's really cute! Hahaha. *^____________^* Haha. *Blushes*

MMmmmmM!!! I Like! I LIke!

Hahahaha... Yea! Looking forward to having fun tmr during ninja-do! Hahaha... ready to dance :D.. Hmm too bad she has only 30+ Mtv. Haiz... DD:

Feel bad that i'm not supporting her. :( At least i didn't support piracy (as the serious form). :(

Weee! Below's some of her pictures :D

Family

2005-10-08T07:30:00.000+08:00

Listened to history.

A long history.

A weary journey.

Back to the olden days.

We were suppose to be filthy rich.

The Su family, millionaires.

A twist of fate.

A really great ancestor.

Whose morals were legendary.

Grandpa hated him for his 80 years.

On his own, Grandpa brought up 8 siblings.

He was just 14.

He rather sell precious land than his baby sister.

50kg of potatoes. Japanese occupation.

Tens of miles for a better price.

Married my grandma as a favour at 23. (My grandma was a step daughter)

Now, the children have grown up.

His siblings rich, WELL to do.

Fcuk them.

Grandpa, a discarded condom?

Shouldn't be. But i feel the injustice.

The fledglings grew and flew.

Thrifty family upbringing, instilled by grandpa.

Quite well to do, no worries for money.

Their children too.

Except for my family.

Lots of things happened.

It ignites me.

Of course i can't hate my parents.

They made mistakes.

Foolish acts.

I can't blame my relatives.

Some pitiful, some smug.

It's up to me, the younger of the sons.

I must gain back the pride for my household.

And not to be looked down upon.

My parents.

Me.

Grandpa.

But.

I'm not a materialistic person.

I seek spirtuality and wisdom.

Not just filthy money.

A meaningful life free of financial difficulties.

Do they understand?

Do you understand?

These duties and others.

Recognised since primary school.

Able to cope with emotionally now.

Now that i've grown stronger.

Wiser and older.

Perhaps that's why i can't attach myself.

I'm preoccupied.

I'm restless.

It's a very long story and most of it are sensitive.

But wad's done is done.

It's a tantalizing illusion left behind.

A distraction from living life to the fullest.

My grandpa's a wise man.

Do not be selfish.

Do not gamble.

Be thrifty.

Family and relatives are the most important assert.

Blood is forever thicker then water.

Love your brother.

No thanks.

Just fuck off.

Out of my sight.

Now it seems like i'm the caretaker for my aged benefactors.

What my grandpa spoke of was learnt, not read.

From 14 till now.

Lessons through life.

What's mine? I wonder, i ponder.

It's a interesting life to explore. :)

A story for grandpa's little tapole. :))___________________________________________________
Wa put aeroplane again.. haha paiseh paiseh. ___________________________________________________

Chaotic days. I lost track of wad happened but basically had some supernatural experiences and maybe i was "ghost pressed"? I dunno. Went for ninja-do. Yea. A change of master and a upcoming performance. We must gain back our pride! All faces were thrown during the last performance thanks to some "wonderful" finale by some smart asses. Downloaded some interesting stuff and reasearch has strengthen my faith. Too bad Singapore doesn't have the things i seek.

Man. I pangseh 2 groups of people again. Sorry sorry. Shit. I sucks. ARGH!!!!!

Wa.. senior die die wanna go "haunted" HDB. Go again? : hmm.. haha don't want lei. I say i didn't disturb on purpose liao. Maybe disguise as indian when i go again. Haha. Den good buddy won't realise that i go back on my word? :

Hut. I'm back

2005-09-29T02:36:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a long time.

Haha.

So, it has concluded that i missed my belt grading, i'm not working as a telemarketer and i'm going to forsake a (missed?) opportunity to work, finding prospective models. <-- Btw it's a nice job :) Ogle at babes, approach them, converse with them, get their contacts, get $$. Basic pay $5- 7/hr. Nice huh?

Fcuk it.

Quite a number of "unlucky things" happened these days, mainly because of myself i guess. I'm too uptight, i think too much. So much for the hours spent on marketing plans. Fcuk it.

Quite pissed and disappointed by some other stuff too.

Went out yest to go for the interview before going to work as telemarketer. Ended up that everyone is quiting the telemarketing job and i guess we can't work there anymore cause we've hurt our credibility.

Spent the night outside and went to watch soccer with Weiloong and Chih to watch EPL at some kopi tiam near cwp. Did quite a number of things throughout the night and ate at 4+am . The uncle told us that their rent for half-a-shop is $6000. My bowl of economical noodles and egg is just $1.20. Well, no wonder they work 24 hours and the uncle has another job in the day.

So, Loongi and Chih came over to my house to stay from 6-10.30am.

Yea. Slept from 2.30 till 7.30pm, sleeping soon. Caught the flu bug. Woah. A 100 dengue fever cases per day. Omg. I can't afford the medical bills bug. Please dun bite me.

I did wither from guilt and slap myself if i did such bullshit to others, which SOME people did.

Grinding refines you.

Good night! Sweet Dreams.

Chaos.

2005-09-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

I've got to admit. I'm too much of a perfectionalist. I'm judgemental. I'm don't speak from the depths of my heart at times.

Chaos. It's all around me. The stagnant air, the dim lights, the messed up furniture, clutters everywhere. Songs... they came in and out. It's only these few days that i truly get to appreciate them. Yet, they cloud my mind. Only classicals can soothe the anxiety in me. Perhaps i'm wrong. Perhaps.

I've straighten my thoughts alot this year but there's much more to go before i can finally rest my eyelids and sleep, days by days, with ease. Perhaps you don't understand much, perhaps you don't care but it's alrite, for this is a log for myself, a windchime hanging by my window.

I'm too stressed up. I'm too harsh on myself. I use to beat myself and even slap myself. I expect highly of myself for i'd not want to be a pitiful victim who is beneath all others. It's me. I've been abusing myself. I see it all now. I do.

Things are not always what they appear to be. I've lost enough. I don't want to regret more.

Signing off...

2005-09-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

Me.

2005-09-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

Taken at woodlands sports hall :)

2005-09-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

Uncovering my potential for acting cute!

Days

2005-09-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

Yea. I'm back. Didn't go for ninja-do on thurs cuz i didn't feel like going. Had some nice time wif chih, nerd, ben, wl, yz and a secret person that i can't name. Haha :P. Played badmt! hehe. Didn't get to play much though, but it's fun! hehe. Very hyper on that day.

Went for pool lame-ness afterwards! HAhahaha! Laughed till tears came out. It's been such a long time.. haha. I'm so pro in tyco-ing that i even shocked myself. HAhahaHA! Won more rounds den the legendary wl ! HAhahaha! Double goals(haha i dunno the actual term :P), impossible goals from rebounding and proxy, winning when wl and yz shot the white ball in after the black ball.. and did all sorts of irritating snoops on yz! Hahaha. Great amusement!

Hmm.. went for job training on friday. Haha. Alot of things to learn, especially about persuasion and communication. I'm easily anxious and worry too much. Must learn to relax.. Hope i can do the job well.. :)

Slept the whole day away today. Woke up at 6+am especially to say goodbye to my parents. And it's me alone again in my shabby house. Depression started to settle in again. The nightmares. Tidied up my room for 1.5 hours. Memories flashed by as the things that were left as they were weeks and months ago were uncovered. Those secondary sch days; those talismans and buddhist charms given to me in desperation; Those simple yet sentimental little things my classmates gave me... Grew more balanced after my parents got home at 8pm. I guess our family don't speak much. It's comfort enough to see my parents though. But after 1 short hour, it's goodbye again as i went to stay over at my grandpa house.

I've to admit. I'm not ready. I need time. I'm afraid of attachments. I'm afraid of attaching myself to people. I'm bewildered. I'm lost. My 1 year plan was right, i need time. I'm sorry...

Had a great time chatting today, but the more i chatted, the greater my fear. Perhaps i'm too much of a perfectionalist, far too strict on myself. Still, I'm very thankful to have met everyone. I'm sorry if i've dissappoint anyone...

Perhaps i'm a loner afterall.

Good Nite. Swit Dreams.

Woot! Evenful days! Close shave!

2005-09-21T13:04:00.000+08:00

Haha. Wee! Now that my computer programming projected is cleared, my conscience is clear! My teacher was doubtful that we finished it in 2 days. :P Told her that 'we' burnt midnight oil. Haha. Actually it was only 'me' who freaking rushed everything in 1.5 days! haha. There's a nice smell of achievement :)

Woah. Having a headache now. Lacking sleep for days... the days before i rushed my project, rushing my project, going on nite exploration, walking about and staying awake till 5am on sat, den end up waking at 11+ on sunday and getting myself whisked away to hospital with my grandpa in an ambulance.

Yea. That's why i have disappeared for three days and two nights :D

Sorry Xueyan, for not contacting you. :) Busy these days.

So this is what happened on sunday. I was sleeping again (after being disturbed by my lecturer and communicating between freddie n chih ><) when i got woke up by wl. Wa... how to sleep like that. Den my aunt came in to disturb my sleep too.. wth? haha. Den things turned really serious. I was "blur" and continued chatting with weiloong when she shouted. That shocked me. Still confused and dreamy, i walked out to find my grandma frantic and my aunt at lost to what to do. Then did i cancel my phonecall and realised that my grandpa didn't fall. He "slept". So, i shouted at him and went to get a torch to shine into his eyes, to which he had no reaction at all. Haha, my aunt was shocked by me. An eye for an eye. :P I went on to press the accupoints on his hand and beneath his nose. That gave me some reaction. Then i massaged his belly with force and apply medical oil etc. etc. haha.. kinda boring to recount wad i did. So, basically we managed to get him awake and made him STAY awake. It was touching a scene if you could imagine. My grandma was crying and shaking my grandpa, "Jiong ah, Jiong ah"(my grandpa's name), my aunt calling my uncles desperately, me "commanding" ''GRANDPA!" and trying to make him wake up.

Hmm. It seemed that he did not "sleep", he fainted. I'd be relieved if that's truly the case. But, i really have to watch him. Looks like i'm moving over to stay overnight at my grandparent's house for a long long time.

Yea, so i went to the hospital in the ambulance and waited for my relatives before proceeding to help my parents close the shop so that they can visit my grandpa together. Freak. Reached the hospital again in the night and stayed overnight. Did all this in the ugliest green shorts and blue shirt ever. Freak! I didn't even brush my teeth or take a shower! Haha. But it's quite "nice" to be able to stay overnight at the hospital to take a shower, use the paitent's toilet, watch nurses work and explore abit. Damn, a mentally ill paitent was rested directly opposite us and he freakingly made noise non-stop and kept harassing me. Freak! Had to cancel most of my hospital exploration trip, so that he won't disturb the others by calling to me. A few nurses got irritated and one finially decided to strap him because he was starting to bang the bed and make a hell lot more noise. Woah. He tried to make the nurse back off by punching and kicking, but it can be seen that he's a kind man because he tried to reason(in teochew, which i dun _stand) and pulled back his punches. So, in order for a peaceful resolution, i went over to distract him with stuff like, "Uncle, your pants is untied, i help u wear". Haha. Quite alot of things about the overnight stay and lots of notions to note down here. But that's for another day. Gathered lots of material to write on.

Yea. So that's all for today. I was suppose to stay overnight today, but my grandpa got discharged. :)

Haha. Tired now, so i shan't blog on. Gee. I like nurses. Especially female ones! :D Young ones preferably... :DD *blush*

Good night! Sweet dreams. ;)

2005-09-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

Haha. Completed my comprog project and handed it in personally. Phew... finished it in 21 hours... haha X). Think it's pretty cool cuz it has colour and is a freaking last min work too. :D

Went to Ponggol yesterday to visit the "Haunted house"! Haha. It's quite an enjoyable trip but there's nothing scary about it cuz it's a bright night and there's lots of civilisation in sight. O well. Liked it there! I love nite walks, especially those under the unobstructed nite sky, with the full moon shining through. It feels so good and relaxing. I love being outside under a full moon.

Freak. Was thinking of joining Chris and others for a while at Holland village but ended up staying all the way till the end, 3am. It's always cool to chill out in Jq's lorry but maybe i'm too quiet cuz i always grow sentimental and thoughtful in such peaceful ambience. It's definately much more interesting then staying at home too. :D

Haha. Woke up ard 10.30pm today and went for abit of dipping at the swimming pool today! Woah. Didn't get to swim and we left very soon since Freddie was busy. Haha. It's been a long time we met up, esp with Freddie ;) Haha Freddie has grown fitter and tanned! Good. :) Looks great now. Haha. Chih too. :D Only Loongi was appeared according to our expectations :DD

Yea. So, after walking and chatting for miles(literally), we ended up play pool at peak rate. Ouch. The guilt is killing me. Haha. :P $$ can be earnt back though, just don't spend beyond your earning ability.

Yea! Watched 2 nice shows today. Condor Heroes and Huang Fei Hong. Hahaha. Though the moves probably exist only in legends and novels, i'm still amazed by the moves and the stunts did by the actors. Cool... Drives me to train harder in Ninja-do! I wanna do sommersaults, flying kicks and defy gravity!

Damn. I need to brush up my communication skills too. :(

Hmm.. there's so quite a no. of personal stuff to do even when it's the holidays. Feeling detached. Ack.. Need $$ too... nidda work, but only after some things are done.

Ahhh... ain't it nice to be rich and taste all sorts of fabulous things at times? :(

Good night and sweet dreams!

Stonning away...

2005-09-16T20:01:00.000+08:00

Haha. This is crazy.. Woot! Spent a total of 16hr 23min on my computer programming project! WAHAhahaHA! @__@ It's 4.55 AM now.

Glad to say that it's quite well done. So much for a 8 week project. Freak! Quite a no. of dudes i know handed in simple programs. Woah. Mine's at a total of 591 command lines, many of which were replaced by functions. Phew. Think i did a good job for the programming part, but freak, juz saw their criteria, time management, sourcing effort etc. Freak. I juz redid the whole project today and my only sources are inspiration and my e-book. Freak. There goes 25 marks.

Well. At least i did a good job. Yea. Freak. If it weren't for Chu Chu, i wouldn't have bothered about the project. O well, have to stick to my word and principles, i don't hand in crap work. If only im this hardworking before my dateline and exams. AGHHH!!! Haha.

Woah. Waking at 9am tmr, meeting Evan at 12+pm. Fish. Hope my lecturer accepts this freaking late work... Ahhh.....

Swit dreams ;)

Dear Bloggy,

2005-09-15T13:33:00.000+08:00

Somethings good happened today. Hahaha. I managed to get rid of my P5 cousin by dumping her to Nerd on MSN! Hahaha! Very funny conversation! Im so evil. MuHahA. Nerd u got pissed off bahx? haha btw really la. The maths qn is from me and its a Fmaths qn. I also forget how to do liao.. so dun worry! u didn't lose to a P5 gal, u lost 2 me! Hahaha.

Yea. And while typing a letter ;), Chu Chu suddenly ask me on MSN. "Why didn't u reply my sms-es?". Woah. She had been contacting me but since i just reactivated my handphone yesterday, so i didn't noe. Haha she forgave me after i explained that to her. Phew... she said she hated me last week. Waa.. so theres still a chance to rush my project and hand in. Freak. I muz finish it asap... 1.5 days left. Haha. Had a fun chat wif her too! And she came by my shabby hut for tea time. While sipping the English tea i offered her, she looked at my newly added pictures and she mentioned that Chih, Ben and me are the most hansome! Haha! :D WeiXin wan shui! Ben ben chih chih wan shui! Haha. Too bad she didn't leave her prints on my whiteboard. :( She's my rare visiter from china.

Haha. And chatted lots wif Xy. :) Yea. Wad's most important is the future. =)

Woah. Just inquired abt RP admission from sarah's fren. Woah. Things are looking bad. Buden her fren, Marcus is a successful applicant, and he told me that i'd better prepare a "nice writeup about urself".. omg. His is 3 pages+.. wa!... Haha but den i inquired futher, "o.o any tips? :D" Haha. And he gave me the best tip ever. haha i copy the exact words to here. "go online search for appeal letters" "got alot of tips" ":D"... Hahahaha! I LIKE THAT SMILE!!! HAHAHA!

Keeping a short blog today! Nid to rush the comprog prog now! Good nite! Swit dreams!

Haha.

2005-09-14T02:22:00.000+08:00

Haha. These days had been so unbalancing for me, stuck at home whole day doing nothing constructive and getting stressed out by non-sensical happenings in my family. Woah. My health deteriorated with my mood. Hmm.. Juz realised the extend of damage it did when i recalled the past.

Haha. Went to collect my replacement sim-card today at plaza s'pura. Wahaha.. Finally!WEIXN is back from LIMBO!! Haha! Looking forward to getting myself on track! wa.. zhun bo suddenly so enthu. Haha. Damn.

Yea Baby. Haha. As usual, i'm staying over at grandparent's house! haha. Im rocking their house down! haha. no la. Hmm.. but i definately brought life with me to my ancestors :D Woah.. of all the descendents, i seem to be their only grandson. Mummm.. mumm...

Haha. Yea.. did abit of excercises in the morning. Yupx. the sensai Jq brought chris n me to was rite. I have weak ligaments and i need red meat and vitamin B in my diet. Jq warned me too that thinnies like us need to watch our joints. :(

Hai. I dun even get to eat alot of white meat, not to mention red meat. F man. Lifted the 12.5kg weight today. Hmm.. once i supported my hand even if it's my pinky(miny finger), i can lift the weight wif a great comparable ease to doing it without support for my wrist. Wanna go Np's gym and swimming pool for training lei.. but polian like pool-movie-ktv type lei. haha. Depend on Chih to accompany me liaoz. :D

Yea. Recalled my "Lucky Day" during april. Haha if u wanna refer to wad happen to me then, check out my entry on Wednesday, April 13 :D Haha. Could still remember the nite of that day, it was raining cats n dogs(haha my fravourite cliche!) and i was working hard. Haha... That day was really a nice day! The puppies come crowd around and suck my thumb and carry! haha. The mummy stuff her head into my hand to pat and allowed me to play wif her puppies... I got praised by the workers etc... haha. TvT So swit.. it's almost like a dream. Haha. Den had the priviledge to treat the indian co-workers and rescue 3 snails from a crushed end. Woah. Those were the days when im healthier. Hmm.. maybe it's the excercise and staying outdoors where the air is free, unlike the stangant and stinky air stinks in my room.. hahaha(maybe it's juz the rotten banana skins).

Yea. Haha. How was my last entry's title? haha gan dong ma? (touched anot?) :D
Haha write a full entry when i've organised my thoughts :)

Yea. Chiong ARRRrrr!!! Hmm.. jio-ed chris out to swim and chill tmr. He's got sum probs i guess, hope he will chill out tmr wif me at the swimming pool and catch abit of sunshine. It's never a good idea to stay in a messed up house when u're messed up enuff.

Good Nite! Swit Dreams! (haHaha. time to decorate my hut wif PICTURES!)

2005-09-14T00:24:00.000+08:00

Chih and me! Yan dao dunnid bai pose de :P Haha. This is the New version of Chih. Chio ba? Woop. i mean Yandao bo?! Haha. Buck up dude and get FIT! Dunnid always envy WC n Freddie la.. train up liao u can touch fit guy(urself) everyday and nite.... ^.^'' ( August )

2005-09-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

POLIANS!! (1 new member! haha and that's Chih! btw he not wussy liao hor. 6 PAACK hor! haha.) (July)

2005-09-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

Onward and Downward! (June)

2005-09-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

Ning mei(aiyo more like jiejie.. Haha!) & me (aiya messy hair) :D (my bad! my bad!) (June)

2005-09-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

Me and Loongi (aka my frav thing :D) (July)

2005-09-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

Ninja-do Ubin Trip! Great time! Great Fun! (june)

It's affinity that we meet. Let's cherish it.

2005-09-12T11:03:00.000+08:00

Haha.

I'm feeling thankful now. It's really affinity that we all meet. It's truly by chance that we all get to quarrel and buai song each other. It's really fate that has brought us together to be brothers n sisters. It's hard to explain now, i'll will explain another time. Wish to say a sorry here to everyone... Weiloong, Freddie, Chih, NERD(:P), Ben ben, Yan Zhang and Shan't. Haha. i noe i had my bad ass moments last time. haha. :D

Yea.

Haha. Went to library yest n borrowed two books. One on swimming and one on english essays. Hope to improve my swimming but it's kinda shy and boring to go to the swimming pool alone lei. Haha. Anyone out wanna go swimming/ sun tanning wif me? :D

Yea. Need to improve my english by leaps and bounds! Two month left for me to buck up or i'll screw up again. D:

Haha. Life has been so much better now. There's so much to look forward to.

Buden there's so much more i can and should do. Yet i've got things holding me back. It's like those days during Yjc.. and the first days in our ME class. I remembered telling IMM... "Let's break the ice and bond this class together.". But i kanna high fever n was absent for the whole of the second week. Den shyness and personal issues stopped me. O well. Now the classmates are quite cold. The enthu-ness to gel and make frens has cooled off. I had the power to change the present situation even if i were to leave the class eventually. Now it's beyond my ability.

Yea.

Signning off now. Swit Dreams. Good Nite!

Yea! Got back everything! Haha. 希望在人间indeed(Hope is in this world)!

2005-09-10T01:27:00.000+08:00

Yea! Got back everything! Haha. 希望在人间indeed!Hope is in this world! Haha. I seem to benefit alot from the good will of others these weeks... Evan^.^ lend me assignments to hand in, supportive frens, frenly ppl... counter lady who treated me softdrink, waa.. now this angel from malaysia who returned not onli my pouch but also my hp and $20+ to me! Waa...

Actually had alot of stuff to blog down buden too shagged to recall. Slept for 3+ hour yest. n stayed up from 6 till now. Waa... haha. Spent the whole afternoon copying notes.. damn i haven't study yet! Ok, Chapter 1's safe. Hmm.. 6 more chapters to go! and i noe NUTS abt them!!! i didn't go the classes thus explaining the freaking long hours i had to spend copying notes given during tutorial classes. Hmm.. as for my maths test today.. tink i can get a minimum of 75.

Initally wanted to give up and sleep yest. as i wasn't feeling well and was fatigued. Haha. Glad to make the right decision to perserve on. Hmm.. blog next time. Nidda start on my frantical studying soon. WAAAAaaaaaaa!!!

Good nite! Swit Dreams!!

Familiar moments. Recent daze. Lost my sentimental stuffs, hp, contacts n $$

2005-09-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

Yaman. Sunk into depression these days. Haha. This feeling that's all so familar... the wiltering of the body, the daze of watching minutes passing into hours and days. Yea. Hmm.. I was feeling weak yet hostile. Even volatile. Haha.

Yea. Went to poly yesterday for some self-training. Damn. Didn't train much cuz senior didn't bring the keys to the clubhouse for the sandbag... D: Slugged into a pool of unhealthy slime over the days too. At least i ran 5 rounds around the stadium and did some pumping, kicking and punching. Haha. Sweating it out made me feel more balanced again. Haha. Jq n Christine's really a fun couple! hahaha. Swit n mushy! :D but not as mushy as my "thumping heart".. hahaha. Hmm.. saw Da Jin too. Hmm.. it's been 5 years? haha he's on his way to being a hunk.

Haiya. Chris is getting himself into some big big mess.. Haix. Sad that im in a deep mess myself so i can't help much. Yea. Went for dinner with Chris n Christine after training at ard 10+. Yea. Haha. Chatting with people (especially a sunny person like Christine) made me feel much better. Yea. Ordered Carrot cake n a mug of sugarcane. Mmm.. Food never fails to cheers me up. :D Probably cuz i dun get to eat tasty food when i was younger. Haha. Feeling so pitiful for myself suddenly. Yea. N Chris brought beer and poured me a mugful since i mentioned earlier that i feel like taking the bitter depressant. Hmmm.. a tasty bitterness indeed.

Yea. Haha. At some point of time in life, everyone will ask themselves these two questions for certain: "M i gay?" "Whats the point of living on?". Haha that's according to Christine's fren. Yup. That's very true! haha. I wondered if i was straight when i was younger(alot younger). Yea, whereas for the second part, i pondered over it too. Pondered over it as i stared into the heavens after peering perilously at where i will land if i jump. Had this notion. "Just a minute more. Hmm.. Another more. One more." Savour this last few breathes and seconds for i will never get to do so again. Suddenly, everything seemed so peaceful. Becuz there was no more tension, no more hatred, no more self-pity, cuz there was no more distractions, only wad's important to me kept flashing through my mind. :P

Yea. Chris voiced this out: There are ppl out there who smile even though they are breaking down inside(lik himself).. yupz. So? It's hard to knock senses into his head(maybe we should try it literally). Hmm.. warned him of his ego but he wun listen.. oh well. Yes. Some people smile even though they are cracking inside. I was one of them, and maybe i'm still one of them. O well. Wad can i say.

Yea. Staying over at my uncle's house tonite.. that's why i can access the net this late. Went to poly this afternoon. Freak. Evan played some basketball friendly n made me wait for almost 1 hour.. haha dun mind though :) cuz i watched some interesting video in the admin office TWICE and met my classmates who were studying. Hmm.. So the prospects of changing course in Ngee Ann is really really low. So it's 80% now that i will go to Republic poly. yea. According to her, the dragon year changed everything. There is one whole pack of ppl out there with no place to squeeze in. Hopefully i will get to squeeze into Rp. It's the most possible poly to appeal in and the most ideal enviroment for me.

Haha. At least i changed Evan's viewpoint of me. He was starting to dislike me cuz i seemed to be really slacky and irresponsible to him. (He's in another class, but he's got his criteria in making friends i guess) Agh.. would really hate myself if i lose a great guy like him, so i gave him an idea of my "personal issues". Yea. Certainly saved this friendship. Yup. I'm a perfectionalist, my output's either excellence or nothing. I dun lik half-f*** jobs. I rather not hand in a thing rather to hand in a sloppy piece of work. Yup. Gave him an idea of why m i insistent on staying one year too. Yup.

Hmm.. joyce didn't meet me for self-study. Haha. So chatted wif Evan instead to Hougang till 6++ Freak. Lost my pouch in the bus. It's most probably stolen. Damn. At least i had my Ez-link wif me, to which i juz brought the $45 concession for. So, i lost my $, Handphone and Student card. Dun really mind, but losing the pouch n handphone is losing a part of my sentiment assets. The pictures in my phone were lost. The phone which traveled with me for so long was gone. The pouch which became a part of me was gone. O well. So are the contacts.

Haha. Evan was like wth??? when i ran off like a psycho suddenly after touching here turning there. Damn. I was quite close to chasing down the bus. Freak. If i had passed the hindering labtop which i nearly dropped, to him, i would have probably reached the bus. I had a feeling that i should check my pouch after alighting from the bus. But after quite some time, the feeling grew very strong n i couldn't believe it when i couldn't find it. Same goes for the gathering, i had a feeling that there might be a gathering today, but i simply dismissed it. O ya, had a feeling that i will meet my aunite too, and truly, she n uncle were there too when i was chasing the bus. Yaman. That's it for today :)

Sweet Dreams. Good Nite.

End of the week.. phew.

2005-09-03T16:36:00.000+08:00

Haha quite an eventful week!

Hmm.. had ninja-do on thurs! hehe. it was fun! we had takedown! Wahaha.. was uprooted n thrown down by mark like a bamboo chopstick! :P Haha but managed to counter his locks and pin downs. Hehe. think he fang shui(give chance) to me :D It was fun! One full version of take down n one crounching version wif mark. One full version wif simon n one legs only version wif chris! haha it was fun :D The second one wif mark was esp fun, when we played down-to-the-floor version. :D We used stangulation and lots of locks, esp wif the legs! Hehe countered his pins and strangulations etc by flipping myself over and many fun moves! :D Xinyi n claria was damn KAWAII!!! hahaha.. it's not that im horny or wad.. but the way they do it is damn cute! hahaha.

Wahh! Sprained my ankle when i threw simon down, used too much strength cuz i thought he was heavier.

Hmm.. we trained wif sandbag from wushu too. Phew lucky us TKD had no training.. !@#$ their training area is such a nice place to train in. Did lots of warmup that day. 4 rounds ard the track etc etc. haha. now im careful! Wee! i can sit on the floor while doing splits wif my left leg le! n now my rite leg's getting more flexible. Hmm.. haha think i mastered forward roll.. now i can do standing roll too! Wanna learn jumping roll asap.

Hmm.. Belting is coming in three weeks. Testes 2 more sessions. Haha.. life will be alot more interesting if this stage is passed. Chatted quite alot, esp wif Jq and chris. Got home at 12+ n tidied the house.

Hmm.. today mah.. quite sianz.. kanna woken n den continuouesly disturbed by phone calls. Tidied the house etc and went to eat good food at grandma's house! There's ancestral workship today in our house today so our relatives are coming.. !@#$

Played Warcraft 1(!) on desktop. Haha. brings back childhood memories. Hmm.. went to sch after to meet evan n do my comprog. Fcuk i can't finish it. Well.. im on my own without my partner. :( Yea. So im most prob going back on sun to submit it and maybe going back on monday to ask abt transfer of course, since we were too late today.

Haha.. didn't go for outing today. Hmm.. dunno why i find myself quite detached at times. Took the lift from Jq and chill out wif the guys at the back of the lorry, speeding down the expressway! hahaha. Nice.

Hmm.. read scientific magazine in sch library today. The more i read, the more i tink of "WTF M I DOING IN MECHANICAL?!".. haha

Yea.. Swit dreams! good nite!

Another week passed.. Safely!

Happy Teacher's Day!

2005-09-01T15:46:00.000+08:00

Haha. Today's teacher's day eve!

:) went back 2 sch today since tmr's holiday. Haha quite a no. of ppl went back. our class ma.. less den half :(

So here's the list of who went: Weiloong, Neth, Yz, Shan, Freddie, XZ, WeiChang, Pek, Ning, Siewfong, Jieying, Sarah, Norazillah, Nabilla, Chris and Junius.. hmm that's abt it if im didn't miss anyone..

Haha.. Saw the teachers, Mrs Anshad, as usual, the brilliant smile, sparking eyes and full of cool crap :). Mrs Karen Ong, omg, she still remembered my name! hahaha maybe my bloody(as in literally) compositions etched my name permanently into her list of ppl to watch out for. "The corpse jerked to live with a chilling scream. She ran, her dangling intestines swaying as she went. She went, desperatly as she tripped over her intestines and slipped on her blood. She crawled, vainly in her pool of red." Hehe. Man. Hope to get back 2 at least my sec 2 compo standard. Sec 2 n 3 was my peak in my writing. :P

Yea, greeted mrs peter(still as gentle), mrs ng(still as wacko, marriage doesn't seem 2 work on her.. haha), mr chew(still as chubby!) and mr tan(haha still a bamboo, but at least his crown of glory sprout back!) N greeted Ms keoh too.. keoh ying ying. Hehe. She's still very much the same, after her marriage.. hehe. she's the teacher that made me truly feel that my trip has been fruitful.

Haha. She's my form teacher for 2 1/2 years. She's my chinese teacher for 4 years... I can still recall vividly my first day in sec sch. The anxiety, the shyness, the will, the longing, the emotions... everything, all the sensations of being a bewildered child in a new enviroment. It's been such a long time, yet it feels as though it's a dream from yesterday. How she looked, what she wore. She's my bridge to sec school life i guess.

Haha. She commented that i've grown more handsome! ;) *haha thankyou! thankyou!*, den she kept commenting that i've changed. "Ni bian de gen hou bo le!"( You have grown to be so much more energetic and active!) Haha. Den she added: ".... That's Good!" Yea i agreed n i told her in a softer voice and facial expressed as i told her, sec sch was kinda sad for me. :( she should noe. She marked my "zhou zi" (weekly writing) and commented on them. My written world used to be so dark and myself, in the void; locked away in a prision where i would stare out with hatred n jealousy at others, their joy, their blissful energy in the sunlight. My logs, sometimes full of sorrow, other times, full of hatred. Dreams: fear, murder, fights to the death, traveling to strange places, corpse, coffin, strangers, gloom, falling off the clift... Days: stoning, silence, writings in my head, winter in my heart, face, wiltered and masked. Smiles: so akward, aching cheeks, reason for me being gossiped to be fake. Secondary sec days were hell for me. Personal reasons, that most can't comprehend. That's the reason why i decided to stay a year 15months ago. Yes. She would know. Had so much to say to her, but it seemed so akward. She too, she's kinda akward to say somethings to me too, i tink. Chatted quite alot wif her. Haha. She looked cuter n younger den last year le, haha, she curled her hair, kawaii nei~ *-*

Haha. Den nothing much to blog down ;) somethings are best kept close to the heart. Yea, went to Yoshinoya wif Ben, Wl, Wc, Yz, Neth, Jy, Sf, Ph and Sn afterwards. Haha kanna shot by the 2pid counter lady!! Graghh shoot until like machinegun... haha but too bad i dun mind! Hehe. Ben and Neth listen liao dulan for me loh.. haha Buden i dun mind at all cuz i noe she's trying to be informal. :P Haha wad xiao di, xiao hai zi(little boy, child).. cuz i order soyabean ma. LoL. :PWahaha.. Den kanna treated to a free drink by her! Haha. All of us was lik hmm.. wads this extra drink doing here? haha she over n told me later that it's a treat from her! haha. Maybe cuz i smile lotsa bahx. Hmm.. smiling really radiates the better side of humanity. Wad goes round certianly comes round.

Hmm.. Lets reflect wad i did this week.

Mon- Went for a full session of sch. Went for ninja-do feeling weird! actually felt wierd the whole day so didn't really interact wif everyone except wif evan. haha. Hmm. did proper warmup! Hmm.. can do turning kicks and many kicks better now since my strained ligament is slowly freeing up.

Tues- Haha. Went to sch for comprog test. Damn. Blankout. Shook my head awhile after i started. I simiply can't register wad i read. Finished only 11 of 15 questions for the 20min mcq. Got 38 of 60? Den the programming part was quite basic, but i simply can't register nor recall anything. Probably pass at 50++. :P Went for some training and some relaxing moments wif Jq n christine! hehe. They rocks....... :)) Nicest ppl ard... Hmm.. ran 3 rounds, at least my stamina had not deproved but instead seemed to improve. Did lots of stretched and keep looking over to the Kungfu(actually kickboxing) club training. They haf some really good fighters. Haha. But its not for me, neither is the freakingly strict karate, ninja-do's still the best for me! :D
Haha. Learnt quite alot from jq n christine. Hehe. Trained using the punching bag from wushu club too. Quite statisfied wif myself, my punches, chops, knees and kicks. Acceptable power. Nidda improve on my stance. Been very careful wif my hip joints and old injury... hmm tink they will be ok within 2 months.

Waa.. heard quite no. of things abt NP too.. Ghost stuff >:( scary business.. heh heh. Reached home abt 15mins from 12am.

Yea. N wed's today. Went back to MSL. Saw all the good old guys, talked to some ppl who i dun interact wif in sch, lik sarah and pek. Went Yoshinoya and NYP wif weiloong, father shop and back home.

o well.. Poor elaine, always stressing herself out. Haix. Hmm.. everyone seemed to be quite stressed abt their studies. Kuok too, spending time in sch, doing project n group study. They seem to study so much for their course. Me? I wonder why we are wasting so much time in poly when they are quite slack n lax in our education. nb. waste people's time n $$. We dun seem to learn much in our module or rather, class. Hmm.. at least im changing course.

Yea.

Good Nite. Cya! Swit Dreams.

Ughh.. he screwed up again :' (

2005-08-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

=( i'm still at home.

When i should be out theresome where having fun. ='(

Felt sick D:

Hurts Bad.

Damn.

Hmm.. woke up at 5+ this morning but still ended up this way :(
Went for a morning stroll juz now, reflected and recounted lotsa things in my head. Woah.. so many things have happened but they are all a blur to me. Damn. Short circuited again. I forgot about all the things i remembered of. ><"

Well at least i remembered the 3 month date-line i have for myself to get fat! ><" Damn! it's almost 3 months now... Noooooooooooooooooooooo

Haha.. Grafafghhh!! Gonna pig myself into a boar during the holidays!! I dun believe that i can't turn fat!!! GrRrAghhh!! juz u wait u fatties!! Man. I wonder how many bowls of porridge and cans of beans and minced meat i nidda dump in to get fat. ><"! Someone give me a proper diet please!! Hmm.. u are wat u eat. Maybe being a gorrila issn't so bad too. Hmm gonna buy lots of banana :D They are tasty treats n they are cheap!

Hmm.. so this is my plan for my 6-weeks semestral break. Work, $$--> proper food(!), clothes, gems?*-*, gifts and bills. Hmm really nidda learn how to cook too! Den, study for O-levels, get healthy, get my hip joints back to working condition, get better in ninja-do and learn more stuffs from frens and everyone!

Man. Busy week ahead. Hmm.. gonna use this "special" day well. Studying after this, den finish my EEPS, clear my assignments.

Maybe we should think this way. Problems are lessons to be learnt. Hardships, a training for the spirit. Spirit, the thing that sets u apart from the inanimate. :D

='( Missing all the fun now.

Weixin blesses you!

Last week to ''clear''.

2005-08-28T13:28:00.000+08:00

wAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been a month now. I can still remember the national day celebrations.. but everything after that's a blur! AGhhhh! My poly stuffs are so messed up!! Everything's so messy! hah hah ><" *pant*

Damn. I nidda finish my projects by this week! Den i nidda catchup on a month's work of Comprog and a whole semester's work on EECADS B4 TUES n WEDS. AGHHHHHHhhh! Holy shit! i wanna go back 2 sec sch for teacher's day. Nooo...

I'm not even back in my home now. Aghh! nidda pack up everything b4 DAWN n go back 2 my house! Nidda wake up by 5+ tmr n leave home(mine) by 6.30am! Freak! Really looking forward to the holidays now.

Hmm.. so this is my plan :D. Damn i don't have the EEPS stuff with me. Hmm.. i shall do alittle bit of comprog tonite and rush my EEPS project b4 monday morning. Freak! i haven't do my MOL! Aghh! My comprog too! ><" noo...

Im blogging less too coz i can't use my wireless n i dread going into my bro's room. Hmm.. did nothing constructive today. Had lots of unrestful sleep and a 3 1/2 hour of unrestful nap. Did nothing much other then digesting lots of food and filtering lots of water. :P

Hmm.. at least i rushed n managed 2 modules+ IS module.. 3 more modules to go. phew.. nidda clear my desk n cabinet by this week.

*Note to myself: Im shortcircuiting these days. Can't catch any balls and keep forgeting stuffs suddenly*

Dear Bloggy,

2005-08-27T13:58:00.000+08:00

Haha. Staying over at uncle house tonite. :D

Waaa.. too tired to blog. Aiya.. wanna go out wif Jq and Derrick today buden too tired... zzz.. man i'll miss the fun.

Haha today's compro test wasn't as hard as i expected. Hope to get a minimum of 75.. Shit i'm so dumb! haha i did all the extra things, wad %-10.2f and all sort of extra "tidy" stuff... man ended up finishing only 2/3 of the last qn. Haha

Hmm.. saw shan today! Haha Shan. Not bad sia u. Getting more n more handsome buden u nidda do something about ur belly! hAhaha. U can be very charming if u want to trust me ;) Hmm.. wondered how elaine is now. haha :P No other meanings ok.

Yea. Got to lesson.. hehe at least im not treated as a ghost in my class :D Like talking to my China classmates.. haix can't express 1/3 of wad i wanna express. o well.

Hmm.. everyone seemed to be in good mood today.

Yeah had some long chat with joyce yest. Hmm lotsa things n some stuff on ninja-do too. Hmm.. wad can we do to keep everyone's morale up lei? and gel everyone and make everyone relax and treat each other like best frens. Actually things can be so simple. Ah well.

Haha dead tired. Shan't blog liaoz. Damn. I'm missing derrick n jq every min now. Nooooo.....

Hmm.. long time since i last played badmt. Aiya next time ba loongi. Nidda rush my projects this week and do my sholdering b4 returning the tools back to neth.

Aieee... The china classmates are so nice! Esp the gals... haix... haha smile at them, talk to them but haven't really get to know everyone on a more personal level. D: The way they smile are so sunny though :)

Hehe but im frenly ok. :P quite a nice response for being absent all the time. Hahaha.

Ah well. Good Nite! Swee Dreams!

Hi hi =D

2005-08-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

=)

Damn. Not much time to blog =( wanna blog a long entry and a reflective compo today. haha =P
Can't tap into neighbour's wireless these days.. so i can't blog, msn or check email at nite :(

Haha. I'm at my uncle house now, im staying over tonite.

Hmm.. oral was fine, think i can get 7/10 for it. Second to be tested for oral! aghh! i got tested immediatly after 10 mins of reading the paper. Damn, no "expected" time for me to relax and organise my thoughts. Geez.. couldn't read well in the beginning part but managed fine afterwards. haha blog down another time =)

Sheez.. ninja-do is fun! wads up wif some of our ninja-do frens.. haiz. damn it. Shit. I will settle that another day.

Cya! Sweet dreams! Good nite!

Chiong Chiong Chiong!

2005-08-22T14:43:00.000+08:00

Woah. Chionging for so many weeks le... National day celebration.. chalet.. performance.. swimming.. outings... My body is breaking down.

Yea. Going to see a Sensei tmr with Chris and JQ. My hip joint hurts and i walk slightly off-side and it hurts at times and i can't stretch, i can't kick or even walk properly! Chris' fractured his knuckle yesterday. Haiz.. sad. Even more sad for John. Haix. He's got lotsa prob already. And den now this. Damn. Sad that i couldn't help much. Not till i conquered mine...

Haha. We had our performance yest! Finally the performance thing is over! Haha. Finally can we relax and focus on our own training, fun and laughter! :) Hope everyone in ninja-do will be one big family! especially after those 3 training day weeks, those throwing, slamming and kicking.. haha. Neat job at cineleisure yest. GOOD EXPERIENCE! KEEP IT UP! Lets get back next year with extra fury and spirit! :)

Sad that Derrick lost his torch yest. His first torch.. in it was the soul of a flash-a-holic. Man. Felt so guilty. If i have not took it out to shine around, it won't be lost. Buden i gave it back to him. Haix.. buden still, it won't happen if i didn't play wif it. Ready to compense him........... :((

Haha. After the performance and after everyone gradually split up back to their respective homes, We (xiang xiang, chris, yong meng and me) went walking about and settled down in Takashimaya. Haha. Chatted and listened to songs on my labby. Haha practised my english oral and Derrick helped me with it! HEhe. Thanks alot! Ack. Embrassing sia. Hehe. CAn't blame me! i dun talk much. I'm normally alone at home and i speak only chinese and hokkien respectively to my parents and grandparents :P

JQ and Christine, Yu hua, Colin, chris came to pick up us later for some nite outing! hehe. Luv sitting behind the lorry, enjoying the breeze as we sped down the highway under the unobstructed nite sky. Went for some Mushroom minced meat noodles! Haha. Yum yum. The guys chatted and crapped b4 we went on to MacRitchite Reservior for some walk walk and chit chat. Haha. The flash-a-holics didn't go into some ulu ulu place to test their crazy torchlights.. phew.. :P buden kinda sad that 2 flash-a-holics were down. Chris and Derrick:(

Got home at 4am yest. :P Didn't do much for today. Had every insightful discussion wif bro. haha maybe we should write a book or something. Hmm.. bad days seem to be over through my will. There only 2 left. Went to library to return and borrow books. Borrowed basics on karate and a book on Shiatsu :D

Woah. At least this week's not so rough. Need the break. Nooo.. nidda chiong proj stuff tmr. Tink i can prepare for debarrment from Comprog exams le. >:( wad a evil punishment. Quite just i suppose. Buden, not letting one to sit for exams is just like giving one his cert or disclosing his result after his test, it's juz that it's worse. Den there's test tmr too. N theres some classmate stuff to settle. aghh!! Den polians stuff! Agghhh! Den swimming stuff.. AGHHHHH!! Wad about my modules?! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Swit dreams! Nidda chiong for my exams tmr! (after i wake up)

Good nite!

Burnt Out.

2005-08-19T15:10:00.000+08:00

Woah. Went for swimming today. Went for usual class and make-up class. Zzz.. swam a total of 50+ laps today, 20 or so in the morning and 38 in the afternoon. Zzzz... Felt so hungry for the whole day since morning. Food consumed: 3 Soyabean, 1 chickenchop, 1 minced meat noodle, 1 mixed vege, 1 Ban Mian. Aghh.. still feeling hungry even though i juz ate my Ban Mian and drank my soya. First time i spent so much on food on normal days.

Hmm.. Today's CATS presentation was lame.. haha :P at least its considered quite good for a last minute work! Hey Hey. I didn't slack! I contributed alot. Haix Sianx now over today and oops. 12 am le, now i need to rush my comprog project. Haiyo. Truly burnt out. First was a very tiring week, den feeling blue, den chalet, den now it's all the training + swimming makeup lessons and training, projects and lack of sleep(& food!). Zzz..

Yea. Chatted with Evan as usual. Haha. Wa... envy him. He could leave school at 11+, me?! i juz got home at 11PM plus! ><" 12 hours of sleep!! AGHHHHHhhh wanna bite someone!! Haha kip on ps him when he ask me out. Haix. That's very bad :( i ps alot o f ppl le. Muz settle my stuff asap. Haix.

Surfed on np.net for info on courses etc. Fell into a semi-sleep for 30mins from sheer tireness and a headache for not drying my hair after the morning swim. Hmm.. didn't do much. Man. My hip joint hurts. Damn. I can't even do a proper turning kick or swim breaststroke properly cuz my hip joint kinda jammed. Aghh.. i wasn't frenly during ninja-do due to my tireness. I couldn't breathe properly. Waa.. Yuan Qi all dispersed le. Zzz... So tired now.

Got myself new bruises on my knuckles from banging the wall. Haix.

Good Nite!

Back to sch! (at last)

2005-08-18T14:52:00.000+08:00

Haha. Went for make-up test today and blogged afterwards(see chalet!) haha.

Hmm.. went back to class for lessons. Classmates were like. Weixin! u're finally here. HEhe. actually only my china classmates greeted me. :P Ack. Damn sad. 有苦难言。。 haha.

Yea. Tmr's Lv Ying's b.dae ;) ^^ u noe loh. Haix. They celebrated for her today cuz we won't meet as a class tmr. They brought poppers and cake for a mini- b.dae party. Felt damn akward cuz i was infront of her and the others were also doing a bad job celebrating for her. Haix. I screwed up. ( ^^ maybe u guys catch no ball, but polians should noe :) ) It's her b.dae, i should have made her happy but i made only pathetic attempts. Yea. After they left, i chose to wait and act as if i'm keeping my stuff, infact waiting for her and some remainders of the class to walk off first. Didn't feel like talking, wasn't feeling like myself and so, I slammed my fist into the wall. Bled. Ok la. abit. Haix.

Hehe. At least we had quite a nice conversation over MSN. :) Haha. Told her that i'm changing course for sure and maybe even change poly. She's sad. :) at least managed to cheer her up abit. haha. aiyo.. haha kinda meaningful. Felt much better after that.

Hmm. Things aren't as bad as i tot. Haha. Thank you John! For helping me find out abt Course transfer and tution grant stuff! Phew. Able to breathe now. I was so worried abt the tution grant being revoked.

Yea. So stayed and chat and slack around with Evan after sch till 6.40pm today. Yea. Haha nice guy. :D Hmm.. Did CATS project le, kinda crappy buden confirm can pass, and if we're lucky maybe we can get a 'B'. Agh.. nidda chiong another project wif or w/o ChuChu.

Yea. Yz's in deep shit wor! haha quick tell him u got health prob! hahahaha. 80% success rate leh! :D haha ok la. Wun kl u.

Yea. Good nite! Swit dreams!

I wish! I wished.

Chalet :D

2005-08-18T03:46:00.000+08:00

Haha. Juz finished my ELTECH make-up pratical test. 3 hours free to blog!!! :D

Haha. Chalet was nice. Hehe though our gang (polians <-- wtf?! ><" lol) and Benben's new SP frens didn't get to interact mah. Well. They outnumbered us and sticked to themselves quite alot but we could join in if we are friendly and enthu enuff. O well. At least i getta interact wif them! :D

Hmm.. The first nite of the chalet. !@#$ I had to wait alone for 2 hours b4 everyone came. I was licking my Vanilla cone for 40mins.. lol. Should have joined Derrick and the others for dinner first. Ah. Well. (wth? Meteor shower watching trip become forest nite exploration trip. Wtf? lol)

WooT! Drank Tequilla(40%) and Vodka(30?%)! Haha. I was told to spread salt on my tougue and consume the liquor in one gulp. Haha. Feels really good! I'm all warm and cosy inside after drinking 3 shots. Hah Hah. *^_____^* It really good for warming up, coz after i drunk it, i could do all the ninja-do kicks without warmup! :D Haha.. Liked the light headedness from drinking it. Ben's frens, Kelvin, KC, Louis and another guy(aiya forget his name) was extremely hospitable! Haha. Shit. The liquor was finished b4 i could get another few shots.

Haha. Ben was soooo man that day! Haha! He took 17 shots and managed to hold on for 25 mins b4 puking! Hey hey. That's really impressive for a first try! Haha. It was the first time i witness the full effect of drinking. Woah. After a few mins, he was doing all the classic stuff of being drunk: "I'm not drunk!" den next he's trying to kiss the floor. Den, "WHERE IS HUISHAN!!?!!" "NA CHU LAI(bring it out!!)!!" LoL den "HUISHAN!!!" den "KNNBCBB!! HUISHAN!! HahAHaha!! KENNETH WHERE R U?! HahAhaha!! BEAT ME!!" LoL. *___* Ben Hao Men WOR!!!

Haha. We had to tie him to a chair with belts and leave him outside the chalet(We know he's going to puke for sure). Haha Den video tape him and play with him till he finally fell asleep.

Haha but wad happened next after 25 mins wassn't very man. LoL. He FREAKING PUKED when everyone was not ready! hahaha! Lucky i didn't volunteer my belt!! We were like: "Hmm.. ok, he's not puking yet. Lets relax for awhile." Den the next thing we knew was "BUAaghhh... BUUUuUUAGgHhHHh...." Waaa! He puked a freaking lot of stuff. LoL! His puke is orange somemore! Wth?! Haha think the size of his dinner is my breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper combined. LoL. Need to wash for a !@#$ long time. Theres curvy things (prawns?), rice etc. etc. wth. Buden no vegetable lei. Aiyo. Muz eat vege! they prevent constipation! haha going to suggest that to him!

Yea. N den Zhe Ming the Love Expert was there too. Haha Really nice guy. Yea the first nite i saw him i had a strong impression of him liaoz(not bad impression, strong). Haha He came, and following him was 8 quite xl bengsters... with glass bottles. Haha. ZM is a high ranking gangster(or leader?) but he rather join a new gang that's mainly for looking after each other, their rules are: No looking for trouble(staring, cursing), no funny ideas on bro's gal, get education(anything, juz dun stop school) and not to take drugs. Can't recall anymore. Woah. That's really good gang rules, for people who want to retire abit bah i guess. Haha shan't name the gang. They are a gang of elite fighters. 6 muay thai*__* and 3 unknown martial artist. Haha felt very priviledged to join ZheMing, Kc, and another guy(agghh. forgot his name) for chatting on the last nite.

Back to topic. N so, he came to ask politely for bottles b4 going off with his 8 ginas following him. Wanted to borrow my belt but maybe my belt too louya den he dun wan.. haha. Wa.. worried for them at first but nothing happened. Haha as Kc has said. "Dun ask too much abt their bussiness, it issn't good" Den i told Kc that they returned without bottles, he said "O ok, is there blood on them? anyone wounded?" LoL. Kc's pro at such bussiness liaox. Haha. Luckily there wassn't. LoL kinda funny. The incident was sparked off when one of his gina kanna beaten up by another gang for no apparent reason.(haha maybe xl la, i c liao also cannot take it) Den he called down his buddies, and ZheMing was one of them. So it was 9 against 20+ later. Haha the story get abit messed up here coz i was blur at that time. Tink the party at fault chanted their gang slogan den Zm & ginas counter with theirs(a nessary act and sort of a return to a challenge and a display of pride and balls for their gang) and shoot them back. Den the 20+ ppl got scared and retreated back to their chalet (of coz la, i see so many ppl holding glass bottles i also wet my pants. HAhaha, buden 20 vs 9.. abit balless la. hahaha, lik that still wanna xl and act beng, join gang. Wu liao) Den Zm they all pissed outside their chalet and went off. Haha one of his gina wanna poo poo there somemore. LoL den Zm: "Mai siao la, no toilet paper to wipe butt la!" Hahaha.

Den didn't do much, after settling ben, asked ben's SP frens to help us take care of him b4 going for a stroll with polians (<-- ><"!!). Haha ok la. Walked about chit chat and practise my ninja-do kicks(axe kick? crescent kick etc.) Hmm.. Saw Roy from marsiling. Haha doubt he remembers me. He's a sec3 last year and get to know him during NEducation camp. Aiya Aiya. I was so hesitant last time. O well. Must be more street smart Weixin!! :P

Brought snacks back to share with the guys. Haha didn't do much next. Went to play black jack(haha juz learnt it) with (!! "><---->)polians b4 all of them fell to sleep. Had to sleep on the floor. Agh. At least its not too cold. Waa.. Woke up after an hour to wear my clothes and jeans. !@#$.

Didn't do much the second morning. Played pool in the moring. The service in coasta resort is kinda lame. Nb. The restruant owner was cheating our $ loh. She said "I let u all to play the first round for free." Den next, after we finished, she said "Slot in the $ else how do i get my balls back?" She was acting blur sia. Dishonest merchant. Den ok, dun want to argue with u. Den we slot in the $ and take back our IC. We went back and den went cycling in the afternoon. Aiseh. The attitude from the bicycle shop handler is also screwed up too. Not ur shop also do a decent job at the least la. U're hired not to gif a f*** face and to be rude to ur boss' customers la. Bitch.

Haha cycling was quite fun la. HAhaHaha! We got into some incident wif a group of gals! hahaha. it's 5 guys vs 4? or 5 gals too! haha. We were chasing them. LoL dunno who suggest one. Den they notice us. Hahaha. Den we overtake them, they laugh and smile at us. "Jia you!" somemore wor! hahahaha. LoL Yz crashed his bic infront of them. HahAhAhaha! Throw face wor. Aiya i didn't wear my contacts during that time. Else i can enjoy the scenery with my own eyes and look at the babes! :DD Don't like to face others when im wearing specs, therefore, couldn't see anything except that they were looking at me when i twist and turn ahead of the rest. Aiya. Aiya. Haha after that they followed us i tink. Hahaha. The tanned gal in purple was the cutest and prettiest. :P Think they are ard our age too! Hahaha.

Cycled to a very atheltic playground afterwards! Haha climbed to the top of a dome structure made of ropes. FIRST! Hahaha. Stepped on Wl's head! haha Liked to swing here and there, climb up upside-down, shift left rite, up down, use hand, use leg, use brain, twist here twist there. Haha. FUN! Haha. On top of the world! (with wl under my feet. Haha)

After playing for quite some time, we went back to the shop and back to our chalet. By that time abt everyone's awake. Nothing much happened afterwards. O the rest of ben's sp frens came. Haha. Friendly ppl. :D

Waa... tired to blog liaox. ahh..

Ok. Didn't do much. Watched some scooby performance. Horny loongi keep taking pic of the ang moh gal. Piangx. Haha. Hmm.. the two malay gals dance really well! Haha. Dun be too seductive infront of kids leh. :D I wanna learn how to dance! Can anyone teach me for FREE?? :D

Didn't do much. Haha. Played soccer with the sp guys. Den went back and slack around. b4 we knew it it's nite. Haha while polians played majong. I went to chat wif ben's sp frens, Zm, Kc, the guy.. Wah.. drunk spoiled red wine. !@#$. I was the first to drink. LoL. They spit everything out after tasting it. Waahh.h.. lol.

Yea. Heard lotsa stuff from Zm on gang stuffs. etc. and his personal expierence. O___O really "epic" real-life stories. If your interested, ask me personally bahx! Haha. Den chatted abt Ben, Huishan, sch etc. :)

O ya. Met Joyce(ben's fren) and her boyfren. Woah. Really a golden couple.(metaphor, they are actually quite chao ta) Aiya forgot her boyfren's name. Hehe im slow at remembering. The guy's big, open and hunky. Joyce's pretty, attractive and frenly too! Haha. They are my model couple! Wanna be like them too! haha admire admire!

O ya. Carried and played with Ben's little bro for a while too. He's 7. Haha. I'm always at lost on how to deal with children. I had always wanted a lil sis in my family to look after. ;) a lil flower in our family. I will give her my best and shower her with my love, so that i will not hate but love. Love something, someone. Yea. So since i had no idea on wad to do, i carried him up and SWING!! WEEEEeee!!! Hahaha. Swing!! Weee!! Hahaha. He was laughing and laughing. Hehe. Kinda proud to make him happy! Haha. Den put him down after a few swings and he happily ran away. Haha mischievous kid. Can tell that he's really smart too. I lik!

Haha. During the second nite, Zm and Kc got drunk! Wahaha. They were freaking noisy! The blasted the music at max and shouted through the nite! LoL. 30 shots. No wonder. Woah they managed to hold out till the next morning when i BBQ. LoL.

Yea. So it has come to the last morning. Setup the BBQ pit and started the fire etc. Woah. First time wor. Haha inhaled lotsa soot coz we didn't have fire starter. I had to restart the fire by blowing coz there was no firestarter left. Yea. N i cooked lotsa lousy food too. Hehe. Can't blame me. It's my first time. Yea. Lucky me, Ben's frens took over the cooking. Yummy... Yum Yum

Yea. Learnt majong finally! Haha. Really lucky tiles, but i didn't noe how to play. At least now i get the idea :D Majong's kinda fun.

Yea. And so, we bid farewell and left first cuz neth was having a bad headache. At least we cleaned the place up b4 leaving so it's not that bad.

Haha. The scene when Ben got drunk was absolutely touching. A drunken will never lie. And his love for huishan can never be a lie. Hmm.. I would like to try getting drunk for once too. I wonder wad would i do, wad would i say. Though im pretty sure that if i got drunk that day i would most probably turn violent and do alot of regretable stuff. D:

Haha. I wish i have a B.dae party lik that too... Mmmm... :P

Byeeezzzz....

Haha. Back from Chalet! Monday!

2005-08-16T16:39:00.000+08:00

Haha. Back from chalet yest afternoon. Slept straight to 7pm. Hmm.. lots of stuff to blog but too tired to blog today! Blog it down next time bahx! Btw. Ben got drunk and he was sooooooooooo MAN!!!! Hahahaha. Btw. Getting to like alchol. It makes u so warm and cozy inside and hip hoppy! =D

Hmm.. Pon sch today =D. Hmm.. went for ninja-do after meeting Loongi. LoL. Initally wanted to chat for 3 mins de. But end up chatting for 40mins. LoL. Saw karen. Haha same old look and same old shyness. Hehe. Swit gal. Makes me wonder abt my Sec. sch days. As loongi has said:" I regret that i've not been able to get to know everyone in our class."

Haha. Got late for ninja-do and kanna pumping for 30 straight away. Hehe lucky me! Im so light that i dun feel any kick!( :John: Dun increase my pumping becoz of this!! hahaha =D) But started panting at 24 cuz i was tired inside out and i was !@#$ thirsty. Hadn't drink much water and ate lots of sweets. HAha. Den did some crappy warmup and went straight to punching and kicking. Wa. Torture man. It's Sahara desert in my mouth and im raining pespiration onto the floor like a firehose. I'm so dehydrated. Hehe. Lucky me that john let everyone off for a waterbreak earlier! Feel bad though, to trouble our leader.

Damn shag for the rest of our training. Hehe tink it's due to lack of sleep bah and bad sleeping postures. My neck was aching and my back was breaking. !@#$ lol. We learned lotsa stuff today! Haha. Nice! Punches, Kicks, Locks, Breakfalls, Falling kicks, Spinning kicks, spinning thrusts, Chops etc. Wahaha.. =D gonna pay more attention to my training now after hearing the stuff Zhe Ming told me during the chalet. =D

Haix avoided talking with the rest during training coz i'm shagged and still down. Hehe dun wanna be a wet blanket and so, stick to my own training. Hehe. I tink i can do backrolls now! =DD

Hmm.. trained our kata. Aiya our kata can still improve. !@#$. Hope everyone will buck up and train at home too! so that we can give in our best during the performance! hehe. Well........ im no good either so i guess i can't say much :((

Hmm.. O ya. !@#$ Got 3 holes on my LABBY!!! NOT SCRATCHES!! IT"S FREAKING HOLES! lol. Think it's from our master's shurikens. ARGHHH.. they rebounded off the board and most probably poked through my cover and into my labby. !@#$... agghhhhh! im such a retard not to see it coming! noooo my darling!!!! ><" hahahaha............. T-T

Haha. Did i look that bad during ninja-do? Hmm.. haha u guys keep saying that i looked so stressed.. aiya.. haix.. wad to say lei.. haha... nothing much bah. Take care ;) Haha lame.. WaaHhhh!!!! Juz wanna let u guys know that im still the old me! Juz a weary and down Wei Xin. Wait for me to gear and oil myself up and i will be up and running in no time!

Hmm.. too shagged to blog anymore. Got home at 11.40 today i tink. Wanna pon tmr's morning class. Hmm.. i have my reasons. Haix. 有苦说不出的汁味好辛苦。 trust u guys will noe bah. :((
In fact. Tmr's lesson is crap. O well. Crappy die die still muz go! Dun go no exam for u bad boy! Scoop up and eat my crap! ><" So i guess i'll have to eat crap till 5pm tmr b4 meeting with Evan and pangsoon(><") to buy some material for our crappy 5men project(yoyo. i rather do the whole project alone or with Evan).

Hmm.. So that's all for today!

Swit Dreams!!

Well. Everyone has their problems. Sorry if i had reminded anyone of theirs when i show my long black face. Esp u Xueyan. :)

Good nite!

Hmm..

2005-08-13T06:13:00.000+08:00

Pon school today. Haiz.

Hmm. Trained alittle bit. Read some books. Surfed the net. The more i surfed on the biotech courses, the stronger my unoptimistic notion about studying Mechanical engineering becomes. ME really isn't my cup of tea. And i seriously feel that im wasting my time and other oppunities. Well, biotech isn't my best cup of tea either, but at least its linked to my ambition.

I've got 16 for my L1R4 and the cut-off point for biotechnology in Ngee Ann is 9 (according to Mark). That means i have to get A1s for my Maths and English. Lucky me i have planned ahead last year to redo my papers, but i !@#$ wanted to save $$, so i chose not to retake Chemistry, though i felt a need for it. However, this year is the enrolment for dragon babies, therefore, the baby bloom has dropped the COP by 4-6 points. Hopefully it will raise by 2-3 points next year(enrolment for snake babies + some dragon babies), so that i can have a much higher possiblity of entering. Not sure about the appealing part to change course too. I have to submit my appeal by september, but i get my retest results only by march. If i were to reapply, will the tution grant be gone?! If thats the case, i will have to change poly. And by doing so, i have to say goodbye to all my frens in ngee ann, esp my dear ninja frens...

Hmm.. Going off to buy a meal now. Need to get to poly for ninja-do rehersal though i don't feel like it. Off for chalet later till sunday. Haixx... feel so bad that my body feels weak but my will makes me feverish.

2005-08-12T16:08:00.000+08:00

Haiya. Feeling kinda low.

Met Chingting yest. and had abit of catching up with her. Haha. Jc stressed huh? What to do? Study hard and play hard bahx =) Juz remember: After all the pressure and grinding JC has put u through, dirt will be uncovered and you will shine like gems polished to a glim.

Hmm.. Very dazed. Haha. Hmm.. O brought Ben to my parent's shop to do shopping for chalet. Met Jason on the way. Haha. Long time no see. U jason lum p(from an ***)! haha. Hmm an uncle gave me 2 cards for some "friends" chatline featuring a sexy babe. lol. Do i look that despo or do i look that "adult"? Funny incident but not feeling funny enuff to tag. =P

Hmm. Today ma. Didn't do much, haha slack around with evan for 1 hour, crapping and chatting. Haix. He asked me to change course together to the same course. Haix.

Swimming's improve but still not to my expectations. Well. You didn't swim for 2weeks, i guess not bad la. Improved alot. Hmm.. Went for ninja-do afterwards. Haha. Didn't feel like gonig but went anyway. Hmm. Not a bad session. Didn't get to train much physically. Haha dun mind though i had plenty of self-training for 3 days le. Our kata still kinda screwed up. Haiyo. Buck up guys!

Yeah. Body, mind and soul are one indeed. Im not healthy anymore! My pinkness are gone! At least i don't get sick and can still jump and hop about, though not as far and often as i could.

1.00pm le. haha. Good Nite! Long weekends ahead! Going to chalet tmr after ninja-do and den staying if possbile till sunday afternoon. Aiyo. Thinking of it makes me feel so tired. ZzZzZZz...

Sweet Dreams.

Haha. Thanks Derrick and Mark, for lending me your listening ears, attention and concern. Felt really good to sit between you two, legs hovering in the air, sitting on the ledge overlooking the stadium under the moon. And thanks Chris, for your concern too. Haix. The only thing that pains me if i were to leave is ninja-do and my classmates.

Nite nite. Sweet Dreams.

Happy National Days!!

2005-08-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

Haha. Hmm.. Have to start brushing up my english writing skills now for my "O"-level retest. Hehe. All blog entries now muz have more standard le :P.Short entry for today.

Woke up at 1pm today. Hehe. Got lots of smses n calls. Hehe, yongbeng, chuchu, evan , kenneth, wl, chih, ben. Haha. It's such a joy to have so many ppl contacting u. Hehe. Maybe its my lucky day. :) Hope i wun be hurt.

Yea. Went for a stroll in the afternoon to absorb some sunlight. AHhh. Liked the warmth from the sun and the carass of wind.

Hehe. Went to marina bay today! Hehe. Wth?! end up playing billard and eating. Haha. Hmm at least we saw fireworks! haha. And chit-chat while strolling about. Hehe. We brought half a dozen of jolly-sally and toasted! lol. Banged my can so hard that my can bent into half. Haha poor kenneth get spilled by me :P

Called Chuchu n asked her to leave earlier else she would be stuck in marina bay. Damn. Hehe. We were stuck in citylink mall den. It was really a BIG jam. We exited from the stairs inside cuz everyone was simply not moving anymore. mm.. walked round and round before walking back to the mrt station by the other way. Hehe. Theres no jam there. Damn. Wondered if i gave Chuchu a false alarm.

hmm. went to cwp afterwards around 10++. Hahaha. Get an extra "STYLE" super duper vanilla cone from a very nice indian guy! Haha. Funny guy. The icecream he gave me is abt the size of 3 regular cones and it comes in a very "stylo" shape as he mentioned! hehe.

Went to watch 7swords afterwards for FREE! HEhe. We entered the cinema since there was no one guarding. Caught only an hour + of it. HEhe. Liked the swordsplay. The movie's quite interesting, hehe dun understand why it maybe boring to some. :D

Hehe. Good Nite. Swit Dreams.

Rants... ?

2005-08-09T17:42:00.000+08:00

Yea. Didn't go for national day countdown today D:

Hmm.. maybe im juz too fatigued from the sleep debts from last week n other personal stuff, thats why kinda in a low energy spectrum today. Hmm.. Didn't talk much in class, as usual. Don't give a f*** abt some ppl now. Find them to be shallow. Prefer to make frens with our class' foreigners. Dun mind alot though. I can concentrate on my stuff more this way. Hehe. N i've got my ninja-do guys in sch to go to now. ;)

Maybe changing course. I need to go to the U. (complex reasons) Wanna get maximum credits for first year. Though i didn't really screw up but in my stricter expectations, i should be beating myself up now(i dun beat others up). I'm lacking in discipline, perserverence and control. That would be a leap back to an academic square one; But also a double dice throw for my life. Maybe im just simply not the type who will go around and about in life "aimlessly n emptly" in life. Yea. Life's unfair. So? What can u do? What can the people who give a damn abt u do? In my opinon, as long as we have a caring family to fall back on and a healthy body to live our lives, we are considered fortunate.

Hmm.. ninja-do's quite nice today. Learnt quite a no. of new stuff. hehe. Hmm. our kata is still screwed up.. still at 60%. Hope the team can buck up soon. Heck. Where's the pride and glory?

A human's will is his greatest asset. Without a will, a man is as dead as a rock and as limp as a corpse. Men create their destiny. "Fate" is probably a unknown resultant in the chaos theory. Lose your will and lose everything. Never ever lose your will to live. It's the greatest mistake you ever can make and the greatest grief loved ones can ever have. Will. A power that keeps the dead alive and the world vibrant.

Hmm.. nothing much to blog. Hmm.. Here's a question for u.

Whose problem is the greatest?

ruoy melborp. (reversed)

Probably true for most people though they wun admit it. I do admit that i'm not noble, but at least im learning to be worthy. How abt u? :)

Going to Esplanade tmr. Hmm.. wad for? Im not sure too. :P Going to be another taxing week. Woah. I can see into the future now. I can see my next week now.

Sweet Dreams!

Lucky streak! Yummy treats!!

2005-08-08T02:08:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Aiya Aiya. Another day gone! WAaaa!!! how?! how?! S***! i tink i need a mummy monster to force me to study! hehe. Aghh! slacked to a pool of slime this whole week. Hehe.

Wa. Got volatile reaction from yest's meal(s). Hehe. Ate lots of green chili + peanuts, ceral prawns, sambal sotong, sambal kantong(?), onion chick and crabmeat ommettee yest. Den drank ice water, guava juice and then some wierd tasting mixed fruit juice. Reached home. Drank another MUG of milo and ate two slices of cheese. Haha.. I'm so dumb! Popped charcoal afterwards too! To stop the volatile reaction and eruptions that rocked my whole nite. :P

Hmm.. got up n met Huishan n ben ben late today. Haha. can't blame me. Still got subquakes inside. :P Brought the two customers to uncle's saloon. Haha.. Huishan is quite a good gal wad. Hehe. From wad i see. Tink she's the practical and not so discriminating type. She's the "achiever" type and she works for $$. Not a bad gal at all :) Buden still hope ben will take things as they come naturally.

Haha. Kanna treated again today! hehehe.. Wa 2pid huishan force us to be treated by her to pizza hut wor! Poor me and my poor stomach. :P Dun mind though! :D always welcome a free lunch! Hahaha.. ate hawaiian pizza! Yummy! Haha i'm on a lucky streak since the friday! (the eve of 7th month... hah hah.. ><"!) haha juz joking :D

Man. 2pid Cherub. Wanna pluck off all his feathers. LoL. Use Ak anyhow "zhuoaa" my frens. Aiyo. Everyone seems to be getting love knots. haha. f*** off u pesky little diaper heads! i'll pluck off all your feathers for my pillow! :P

Hmm.. haha lucky me! theres a holiday on tues. haha else i wun be able to survive the week. Hmm.. maybe bringing pingpong bats and badmt racquets for my classmates to chill out wif tmr! :D while poor lousy student(me) has to mug and complete his assignments D:

Haha. Fun week ahead! Chiong ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhh!!!

btw, Sweet dreams ;)

ChARGgeEeee!!!

Romantic woh :D

2005-08-07T16:58:00.000+08:00

HAha. Woke up today ard 1pm. Haha had a very nice n romantic dream ;) Hee hehex..

Aiya Aiya.. den didn't do much. My bro asked me how to do proper punches n so i taught him and showed him some other moves. Damn. He's still a control freak. wtf.

Hmm.. haha late to meet Nerd and Chih at cwp to travel for our dinner! Hehe. Went to eat at the fishermen village with Loongi, Ben ben, Nerd, Chih. Haha.. the total bill is $60+! Haha. Each of us gave $8 for the dinner. Felt bad for Ben to be spending so much(abt $50+), so gave a $5 extra. =D wun feel so bad den. We had ceral prawns, crabmeat omettee(?), some vege, sour sweet sotong and onion chicken! Haha.. Yummy!! It's been a really long time since i ate something from a resturant like this.. The last time was last year june's(?) geography trip to kl. Hmm... Enjoyed the seabreeze n atmosphere lotsa anywae ;)

Hmm.. traveled to ben's workplace around 10+ to get his belongings. Marina square... the place certainly brings back bitter sweet memories. My first job was there, in Pan Pacific. Haix. Bad bad memories. Can't believe all the bullshit that happen to me and my own luck.. even till now. Went past esplanade on our way back. Hmm.. dun see wads so special abt it. =P

Haha n so we got back on our long trip home! Hmm.. really glad 2 know that Ben ben's got lots of good frens. Hehe. He's too gentle for his own good. Glad to know that he's got great frens out there to look after him. Haha. Can c that KC's a really great guy. Look forward to making frens wif him on friday. Enjoyed the trip today. Hmm.. maybe things should be kept as simple as possible huh? N nerd. Stop smiling and laughing so wanton-ly(yun dang) lei. lol :P

Haha. Ben's helping me to "da ting" for jobs. Woah. There maybe a waiter job for $7 around clarke quay. Woah. Sounds good to me. Hmm.. maybe i can work there after school. Hmm... hehehe. That will add some weight to me n my wallet! haha.

Still need 2 settle personal probs b4 i can continue on in life. Haix. :P Buden. If i had no probs. How would i learn to cope and help others? :) so perhaps it's a blessing in disguise? :) Wad's important is wad happens at the end and wad was learnt in the journey.

Hmm.. Nidda bring Ben ben to my uncle's saloon tmr at 9am. Haix. lack of sleep again. Hmm. Nidda complete the unexpired assignements after that. Hope to excercise abit :P getting lazy these days. Hmm. Can see the shade of a handsome n fit Chih today. After 3 months. 3 months and he will be grand. :P

Haha. Theres a NDP holiday on tues! hehehehe.. but nidda buy stuff for chalet D: Den there's kbox(?) on thurs and chalet from friday to sundae! ><" Man. No more $$ heavy activity for me..hehe. Joining the others after ninja-do training on friday. Hope someone will accompany me there, coz it would be ard 10pm. ><" 7th lunar month.. wouldn't want to get unexpected companions along my lonely way there. Haha.

Hehe. Tired to blog as usual. Sweet Dreams! Nite. Nite!

Haha.. Week ENDS!

2005-08-06T16:44:00.000+08:00

HEhehe.. Went for lessons for only 2.5 days this week! hehehe. Got mc for two days ><" Damn. Doc can't give me a back-dated mc to account for my 1/2 day absence. Hehe.. waited 3 hours at msl polyclinic for medicine and mc. !@#$ boring.. lol. WAahhh!! We slacked for 2hours this morning n was dismissed early by an hour! But my !@#$ fren told me i need to submit my ex D only when it's 5mins to dismissal.

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh!!

Damn another expired assignment added to my list. =D hopefull they will extend the datelines like they always do! =DD

Hmm. Den nothing much today. Haha. Damn. I hate gals sitting next to me. Especially attractive ones *blushes*. Man. They always make me nervous and when i get nervous, i hear voices calling me onto a highly spiritual journey to where the bowl flushes. ><"! MAN!!

Haha. Didn't do much. Hehe, walked around to Qing Qing's neighbourhood b4 proceeding back to sch. Cuz he met his other provinencial frens along the way. D= Hehe. Kinda left me out. But, surprise! surprise! Saw Ming Cao and Chen Dan playing pingpong! hahaha. Can't imagine these two china classmates playing in the sports hall! hahaha. Can't help but to grin at them and join in the fun! hahaha. It's been a long time since i played pingpong, the last time was in march, playing in NYJC wif toby... D: brings back "dream-like" memories. HEhe.. Today's my lucky day! Met n went to class together wif Lv ying in the morning. Met n walk about wif Qing2 in the afternoon and joined in for a nice chit-chat and ping-pong session wif Chen Dan and Tao! =DD Hmm.. Got quite a no. of similarities wif Chen Dan(amy!) :D. Hehe. *blushes* She's such a sweet gal... *orhhhh....* Haha.

I sux. I dun even talk in class but always get so hyper after school! Hehe. Lousy student indeed. :P Yea. Met Kelvin, our class rep, this nite during ninja-do. Wa. Lucky day indeed. Woah.. First day of ghost festival lei.. hehe.. hmmm..... ?!!? Apologised to him(our dear classrep who was trying so hard to gel everyone) for not speaking much in class and gave him a friendly pat on his back and a cheery farewell! Haha. It doesn't harm to be polite and friendly ;) That would certainly clear some misunderstandings. :P

Hmm. Went back for ninja-do after walking to Tao's neighbourhood. Today's Ninja-do training is fun! Haha. Relaxing but not slacky! We managed to improve on our kata; stances, coodination and alignment etc. Hehe. We chose a cool track. Haha initally thought that it was too peaceful but after awhile, figured out that it's quite nice but requires more skill to coodinate our kata with. Think our kata performance is about 65% ready. I believe we can reach 80% within 2 more sessions. Haha. Quite a no. of interesting things happened =D. But i wun blog down.

Hmm.. why everyone seems to be addicted to love these days. Has Cherub upgraded to using machine-guns?! Hahaha.. Wad has happened to brother, joke-ster and friendster-hoods?! Haha. O well, Love doc here wishes all singles and couples a great relationship full of love and affection! Dun shotgun har! hahaha.. Remember! Finding to making... Always aSk the pro! ;D <-- who else? ^^ Haha kinda make me lonely seeing hugging and lovely couples about. :P N i'm getting tired from singing Lonely. D: Haha.. Hmm.. didn't go for the movies today. Didn't go for supper today. Reach home earlier today! hehe. Hmm.. i must concentrate. Studies.Overcoming irrational fears. Achievements. :D Man. Weekends are finally here. I'm so relieved. Phew. Hehe. Going to eat at Pasir Ris tmr! Haha. Meeting Loongi, Ben2, Neth, Yz and Chih tmr for a complusory dinner. We need to spend at least $40 on food for Ben's national day chalet promotion to work.. !@#$ another tear in my pockets. Hehe. At least its at the reigion around Coasta Sands! Haha wanna explore around.

Lucky day indeed!

Btw. Looking out for shops that sells gems. Hmm... Any idea?

Good Nite. Swit Dreams. Sleep Tight!

You! Yes You! You! You! You!

Lousy --> Nice Day!

2005-08-02T15:32:00.000+08:00

Hahaha... enjoying my potato soup while blogging! hEhee.. cheers me up when theres good, steamingly hot food!

Haha. Today ma. Slept 5hours only. Got to sch shagged and forget to bring my lens for ninja-do! ><" can't be hyper without it. Late. Haix. Den did my stuff. Hmm.. my project no prob i guess. Phew one burden off my shoulder. Hehehe. At least i cleared some misunderstanding btwn classmates! Haha. :) Hope they dun find me unfriendly when i dun talk in class! Buden also talk quite abit wif them after class la, when there's less people.

Hehe. Kinda like my EEPS lecturer. He's a good man, haha he's bloody funny in the way he talks. He probably bloody did study in England. Hmm.. Gotta chat, eat and chill wif Hantun(a silent myammar guy!) today after school. Hehe. Actually i prefer to interact and make friends with classmates after class, on a small group or individual basis. I feel that its more like two people genuinely meeting up to be friends, not just to be a "classmate". Hehe. Figured out that it's also alot more warmer n friendlier this way, and you can get to know each other more! Hehe. Don't like interactions to be too "wierd" or too "polite" in class. Hehe i will help my foreigner frens as much as possible! Already borrowed my amaths n english books to them, help them find cca and keep a lookout for tutoring jobs.

Ahh.. why did i screw up on sat?! Hehe. buden i tink i will get trashed today if i manage to pass through on sat. The guys i saw today are much better. Mostly are from the IVP badminton team, so they are quality assured. But think HanLing and MSL badminton boys are on par or better den them ba. Hehe. Saw a slim and seductively graceful badminton gal! HEhe reminds me of someone and some old days. Haha. Swit gal.

Hmm.. went for ninja-do thereafter. Aghh.. dun like it when i haf to wear my specs. Hmm.. Im getting very flexible. But im afraid i might be too flexible for my own good. Flexibility needs to come with muscle mass, else you will juz be flopping around. LoL. Juz imagine a jelly fish. Hmm.. didn't get to train much. At least im more confident of my kata and handlocks. Hmm... tink i cultivated some inner strength. Hehe. Can shout out in a strong voice now from my diaphragm or "dan tian". Hehe n im turning healthily pink!(Hope it lasts) Hehe. Hmm. More practise = steps closer to perfection! =D

Hmm.. Yongchuan(Chris) got hurt on friday and had a bad headache today. Sent him home and paid a visit to uncle and auntie at his house. LoL long time no see. Chris' fortunate to haf his dad, he's a truly loving dad. :) Haha enjoyed the chat. Hehe. Got treated to two cups of bubble tea! hahaha thanks chris.

Hmm.. Met up wif ben, yz, wl and nerd after that at cwp. Hahaha.. bo liao lah. Waste my labtop battery. !@#$ retard sia go sign in msn n surf instead of chatting. Waste my transportation fee and energy.. !@#$ =D But its a long time since everyone is present anyway.

Hmm.. went home wif ben after words and try to open up his loveknot! haha. haix. poor ben ben. But can see that he's no longer paranoid over it. Thats a very healthy sign! Hehe. His calves constantly get cramps and hurt alot. While "testing" his calves on the mrt back home, a frenly old grandpa smiled and chatted with us! hehe.. lik frenly elders. He learnt shaolin skill(forget wad skill) from malaysia! Gave us advices, Eat potato shoots cooked with chili, wear socks and long pants when sleeping. This is to disperse the 'wind' in dunno wad jing. Hmm.. so maybe you guys will wanna try it. LoL helped ben massage his stinking feet and calves for 15mins in his neighbourhood. Sia la. Really in bad shape wor. Haha. Take care. Take care. =P See i'm so noble :D

Waaa! Need 2 wake up in 5hr 30min! GTG SOON! Cya! Sweet Dreams!

;)

Zzzz...

2005-08-01T02:25:00.000+08:00

Waaa... eating and blogging during my study break! hehe. Been doing comprog. project from 7 till now. Haix.. haven't even touched my expiring assignments yet.

Hmm... tired now. Haix. Love was in the air. Now love is all taken in and farted out by women. hahaha.. not a insult to women! so dun trash me! hahaha... sad for my frens. Haix. Love has turned sour for them and smelly to me! Hope my dear frens find a solution to their problems.. poor ben ben. D: He lost so much and have only so much more to lose. Man.. that took extra 3 hours off my sleep yest.

Hmm.. woke up today and didn't do much. Went to accompany Chih for haircutting. Aiyo. Hair cut only mah.. its not like u nid 2 wait for Santa to adward u some hair. Den went around chatting with him and had dinner together before proceeding back home. Man. That took another 3 hours. Got home near 7 and worked on the project till now. OMG! I HAVEN"T DO MY OWN ASSIGNMENTS! AGHHHH!! Man. I dun mind doing the project all on my own but im afraid my china partner may not get to learn from the project. Damn. Hmm.. completed 50% of the "chim" project(which i planned to do) now.

Hmm.. Ganbatte! the nite is still quite young!

Badmt competition. Snail rehabitation

2005-07-31T15:23:00.000+08:00

Noo. Screwed up my competition. !@#$ crawled to school early in the morning for badmt competition but my freaking opponent didn't come, so i walked through straight to second match which came only hours later. Haix. I'm 100% sure the hall wasn't mopped, cuz not only did i slip, the guys i got to know there also did and complained abt the floor and the wind(it was raining heavily). Freak. I smashed only once or twice for the match. Haix. Didn't jump smash coz the wind was making the shuttle's flight path an uncertainty. Slipped when netting. Screwed up on easy strokes(cock eye). Fcuk man. After smiling and congratulating the other guy, i went down to seat down wif a aching heart. Hehe at least i showed good sportsmanship,scooping the shuttle over the net, intiating the handshake etc. Haix. Missed my shot. Didn't achieve anything in badminton... noooo...

Hmm.. hahaha poor derrick hurt his hand. Damn funny but too tired to blog down his heroic actions. lol. Basically he met a drunkard at his gate and he did something damn power! hahaha. Wei Xin blesses u derrick :P

Haha skipped ninja-do yest. Phew! hahaha.. only 8 people turned up. hehe. Hmm.. dun mind turning up though if i knew im going to get a walkthrough, screw up today and play in a lousy court. :D

Hmm.. at least i gotta know some guys today! hehe. Hmm.. wad else. O and i saved a clueless snail during my nite stroll today! hehehe.. at least i did some useful stuff today! :D

Hmm.. and gotta noe that my EECADS assignments still can be submitted!(and accepted) Wee! hahaha.. phew.. that means i wun haf to retake my module!(i owed him all assignments since may). Hehe. O ya. Walked back from cwp to my house today. hehe long walk and reflected on lots of thing. Hmm.. i do treasure relationships.(frens, family etc.) Though of calling kuok and elaine out since we're in the same neighbourhood for some chatting at the food court. Haix buden kuok went for class outing and hmm.. kinda busy(hehe but slacked again once i got home) too so didn't call elaine out.

Hmm.. downloaded quite a no. of songs and surfed for boa's pics! hehe downloaded quite alot. Ok, if i need to get my first idol. Den BOA' s my idol!! :P (not as in those hardcore idolizing) but i admire her. She can dance really well and she sings well too! Most important of all, she's healthy and beauteous!(as in the way she present herself). Hmm.. !@#$ juz gotta know that ben's gf can't make it tmr. phew also a blessing la. Nid to complete my assignments n do my projects! ><"

Predicted a busy week ahead. x_____x"

Good Nite! Sweet Dreams! (hope to be able to become a tutor and settle some personal issues!)

Wei Xin blesses u! Derrick, U especially.. *blush*

Juz another entry

2005-07-29T15:24:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. quite a tiring day(mentally and physically).

Had 2 swimming lessons today. Aiya why everyone slack.. make me ps to swim more rounds. Hehe. Buden now breaststroke can le. Free-style getting there. Wanna master free-style asap so that i can learn bits of butterfly b4 semester ends! Hehe. Gotta know from a guy in make-up class that there's a one year swimming class for $10 only, organised by the diver and lifesaver club. Omg.. wanna join but no time. Its mondays and wednesdays. Damn. Its very hardcore too. Haix maybe i will take it next semester or next year.

Hmm.. Ninja-do today is quite relaxing.. hehe. Glad to see that we are stepping up on our training! hehe. Hmm.. my previous entry was too hostile. Ok i really lost my temper when i blogged that nite. But its a misunderstanding and i still insist that i didn't do anything wrong. O well..

Yea! I'm in performance again! hehe. Will be performing kata. Haha. Ok wads next? Hmm.. k la went for dinner today and Yuhua's wif us. hehe. His face certaining lighten up everyone's mood! hahaha.

There's extra ninja-do practise! wee! haha but too bad i screwed up on handing in assignments.. ahhh... hmm badmt competition's on sat. Hope i get enuff rest tmr and do my best on sat. Den will i lose wif no regrets. So probably wun be going to ninja-do practise tmr.

Ok. Good Nite. Swit Dreams.

Musings.

2005-07-25T02:58:00.000+08:00

Haha. Woke up at 2+ today. Hehe. Went to grandma house straightaway to help my grandpa downstairs to see a doc wif my uncle den went for a peaceful walk in the rain. Haha.. Like the loneliness, dun feel lonely though, with the trees, grass and raindrops all around me. Hehe. Perhaps u won't understand.

Got back to grandma house for some spoiling! hehe. Get to eat a good lunch today. Hmm.. my second auntie n uncle came. My second uncle's a really smart guy! Haha and I really respect him, not for his wisdom and wealth of knowledge, but for his humility and unjudging eyes. Hehe. Though he was a university lecturer(he got sacked by popular demand coz he WAS a hot tempered guy) and is earning good income now, he still speaks hokkien n act like any uncle in the coffee shop! haha. He sits with his leg on the chair and speaks in a funny and friendly way, as though im another uncle fren of his. hehe. Ask him about anything and he will share with u his wealth of knowledge, from his friends and his own experience. My honour indeed.

Chatted lots with him :D Haha. He said that poly fees used to be $900+ or so but now it has risen to $2000+.. haha. He said that now education in s'pore is being run as businesses. "Principal" of polys are now CEOs and they easily earn 7 digit figures per year. S'pore is being governed like a business enterprise too. Haix. Money keeps flowing around in our prosperous little s'pore but when they all end up flowing into the gutter, i wonder whose gutter is it. Hmm... and IF we ever get it back, we will probably get it as some "Branded" "new-water", with all the "dirty stuff" removed. ^^ Haixx... Some things are just so plain to the eye but most are blinded to it while others are silenced(or happily "gagged" wif golden rags).

Oh and my aunt commented that i've grown pinkish and healthier. I appear so much livelier to her now. Yup Yup. Thats right. Secondary school days were the hellish days of my life. I was living in an invisible cell of self-conflict and barred off from others by an icy chillness of the long years of winter in my heart. Imagine wad days would be like without talking, years without a geniune smile. And how the heart aches when no-one will understand those deepest words u speak and mistook the kind intentions u had for hypocrisy. The ironic fact was that she initally thought it was simply stress from books. Haha. Doesn't matter anywae. The ice in my heart is melting away and pure emotions(not tears) are gushing out forth. The forbidden terrain that was buried for so long under the heavy chillness is now once again brisking in the comfortable warmth of the sun. Finally it has come to be that my spring has arrived. :>

Brrrrr... wad am i musing abt. Hehe( #^__^#) My 6th aunt's sis and mum are leaving for viet tmr.. Wished to send them off at the airport but i've got lessons :( Haha. N juz got to know that NP badmt pre-liminary rounds is on sat instead of tues! Haha, third pair.. while chih's second, phew.. dun wanna compete with a fren on the first round! Yeah! Getta go for a proper ninja-do session tmr! hehe. Wanna don my gi with pride tmr n haf some frenly sparring! (hope i get to kick butts! currently pratising the lethal "anal-hole tunneling toe" lol) Hope to have lots of fun tmr! *^_____^*

Wahaha.. And poly operates by a credit system juz lik the U. Damn. This means that i have to get good grades each year for every module, which means i have to hand in ALL my assignment n be VERY regular in attendance. Hehe. Not much a task i guess(as long as i start bucking up now :P)

Haha. Got another 2 customers for my uncle's saloon. PLS FIND ME IF U NID A BARBER OR HAIR STYLIST!! I got great deals ;) Also, i saw great promotions for contact lens. Find me too. ;) (its a foc service from me).

Waa... die le.. assignments not done. Haix. Going to complete one module's work later and next morning as i dun wanna make the teacher i respect unhappy. :P Hehe. A sleepy evan juz sent me assignments for two modules! hehehe... maybe i was wrong abt him two weeks back. Haha. That did lift the weights off my shoulders. Kinda sad that i'm this desperate. Hehe. But i'll make sure i understand wads needed to be understood.

Cya. Sweet Dreams. Good nite.

Zzz..

2005-07-24T02:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Didn't do much today. No sense of accomplisment.. lol. At least we went to S'pore Sports School's Open house :D

Hmm. Woke up late today, wonder why didn't my hp wake me up. Maybe damaged from the fall. O well. So went to play badmt wif a pair of dried eyes n an aching body. lol. Didn't accomplish anything. Got defeated at doubles by a pair of sec sch kids in fuchun cc. Omg. We could definately trash them. O well. wad the hell... Didn't bother much abt the defeat though. We know its a screw up.(at least i know :D)

Went for some soaking at wdl swimming pool aftwards! hehe. its always relaxing to twist n turn in the water n float away... o well.. the downpour ruin it. Liked the rain though.

Wahh.. inside the changing room was the most disgusting scene i ever saw. ***Do not imagine while reading!*** I was styling my hair when i saw a nude guy "standing" from the mirror. Wa... omg. After awhile later when he finally dressed himself, he looked at me. Wa... wth?! didn't look back at him though i can still see that he's looking at me and hao chih. wa piang eh. Chih was most disturbed by it. Oh well he always meet such incidences.. lol if it was me i will probably be SERIOUSLY disturbed too. hehe. Couldn't do much anyway. But was ready to wreck him if he dares to touch me. Waa.. can't imagine wad a heavily deprieved macho gay CAN do.. hah hah hah. ><" So, went back to wdl sports hall for abit of badmt. Wasted my time there n went strolling ard wif chih to marsiling blk300 there, fuchun cc.. blah blah. woah.. long distances n finally, set off for sports sch. Haha. We gave an uncle in a car wrong directions to sports hall, i was too blur at that time to give the right directions. LoL. He probably found himself heading down the expressway to tampines. haha we suck. We went the wrong road too anyway. LoL. ><" another long 20mins walk. Saw lots of beautiful ppl in the sports school. The future althetes of our nation. Hmm.. Many are tanned, pink(pink of health), and tall for their age and had a good build n shiny eyes. Feels good to be in a place of beautiful ppl. Hehe. The sch is indeed beauteous. Woah.. my dream school. Saw innova jc too. Woah. my dream jc. Hehe.. They are both set upon a rolling field under the unobstructed sky. Damn.. thats my dreamland too. Hehe. O well... Lost my temper at chih. Haix.. anyway had a long walk from there to my house. 30mins? Asked some uncles abt the remote-controlled planes they r flying.. woah. U can get one as cheap as $17, the controller however, is abt $100. Hehe. Not my hobby. Chih came to my house. Showed no hospitality. >:P

*Yawn.. Boring day.* zZzz...

If.

2005-07-23T17:13:00.000+08:00

If u have reached a road junction and theres two paths to take. One, a track into the wilderness while the other, well-trended upon n flowing with other people busy with their own businesses. Which path would u choose? One into the unfamiliar n "primitive" nature, while the other, out into the urbanized and "liberalized" society? Hehe. For me, its the wilderness i guess. Seeking enlightment in recluse, instead of adhering to society, to the folk and their thoughts. After which, to be able to see in a new light, unclouded at the society and to join others in their spirtual path(not religious) to make the world a better place. Btw, 60% of the earth is gone now. Trees, grassland, seas, habitats... etc. It doesn't take a genius or phophet to tell u that the end is coming; quite possibly in our lifetime. (psst. I dun mean cultivation as in staving in caves n wrestling with bears... ><") Anywae, had food poisoning yest. so didn't go for the outing. Haiz. Wouldn't want to have akward visits to the toilet when u're out wif ur frens. Haha. Woke up finally at 4pm, after recieving !@#$ no. of calls. Involuntarily "debate" once again wif bro on some "spirituality" and philosophy etc. Haix. Den went off to the library. 2pid chih.. hp batt went flat.. haiyo.. so didn't get to meet. :(( Borrowed books- Xing Yi Nei Gong; 100 excerpts from Zen buddhist text; Ayurveda(healing stuff) and also extended Musashi at the library. Hehe. Maybe wierd to u guys. O well. If only i had these topics as my "O-level" subject and as my prospective "rice-bowl". Requires a total devotion of life to master this arts though.

Got home and cooked some mee and surfed the net. Hehe. Recently into zen. Zen is not exsistent in buddhism only. Einstein could be a considered some sort of a zen master too. Hehe. Maybe u guys will wanna check out this website! www.do-not-zzz.com <-- It's very hilarious n is clear in getting his message across. ;) Hehe. (Don't worry, theres no religious stuff)

N so, MSN, phone n surfed till now. Hmm.. nothing much. But got lots of new info on the net. Hehe. Lots of stuff on subtle things. To my liking. If only i had these topics for my test. Can write essays on them instead of answering structured questions. *double sigh*

As usual. Throughout the history, famous ppl have been taken for as retards or fools when they spurt out something that goes against the conventional flow of society. I'd rather be a misunderstood fox den to join the flock of sheeps in their incessant noise-making and following of the sheepherd. Not that i'm comparable to the great men of coz.

Yea. So, good nite n sweet dreams. Tmr's my last practice b4 np open. haha.. hope i get into the semi...

So much for a spin of the wheel. Great day nevertheless!

2005-07-22T15:49:00.000+08:00

Haha. So much for a spin of the wheel of fortune. Juz got home. Food poisoned now. Damn it. Explain later.

Hmm.. woke up n went to tend parent's shop in the afternoon. Helped to arrange goods on the stand. Woah. Hehe.. enjoyed the excercise. Had to twist n turn wif boxes of drinks, oil bottles etc to maneuver them and myself. Hehe.. really horned my balance skills. Quite a challenge not to fall off the shaky ladder wif the goods too! Hehe. Fun to use my shoulder, back etc to move stuff instead of juz hands.

Went to Nyp afterwards to train badmt wif weiloong. O ya! Met YeeShih. Hehe surprise surprise.. now i really believe in affinity. Hehe. Yest was Jason. Now its YeeShih. Btw, Weiloong's my fravourite thing.. my hobby is to play wif him... (haha.. wonder if u guys still rmb my last-minute class presentation) It's true.. It's true ;) He's really a A1 grade fren. ;)

Can't play in nyp coz i didn't haf the card. Wtf. I memorized the info of my other fren (pingyi) but the lazy security guard made me tired to even try to convince(lie) her that im a student n ask if i can gif her my particulars instead to enter. Strolled n had a fun time chatting on the way to Yck stadium for badmt nevertheless. Hehe. Tink i got chance for NP open le. Hehe. Improved quite alot. Stamina is there, footwork is there, mindstep is getting there but skill wise is still lacking. Hehe. Didn't expect much though. I'll have to admit that it's luck if i get to the top few. Hehe. IF(!) i ever get there. Enjoyed the workout! hehe. Doubles wif two aunties. Wl commented that one of them is rather hot. ;) :DD (ps. she had a son of abt secondary sch age) Moral: Excercise is good for health and health = beauty! (nono. Not that weiloong's a desperate n horny pervert. :DD)

Accompany wl for some "medical appointment" in marsiling only to realise that the hospital is closed at 4.30pm. WTF?! N he said that it's at 8.30pm. Wahaha.. wth.. so we strolled along n chit-chat. Called Chris down since we're in his neighbourhood. Hehe. It's been a long time since my frav thing and chris had met. Hehe. Can see that they click quite well. Strolled to Cwp and back. Woah Chris. Dun indulge too much in those stuff. It's unhealthy ;). Haix. Yea so they had their chat while i went off for the loo several times thanks to some food poisoning. Woah! Scary bussiness. Hehe. Got some activated charcoal from Chris. Hehe SO Nerd(!). Dun u worry ;) I will still be able to constipate and produce a healthy looking meal for u! Hehe.

Hmm. Wad else? hehe. abit shagged to tink of more. Haiz. The poisoning ruin everything. Hmm. wonder if i can attend the celebration tmr. HAiXxx... x__x"

So much for a spin of the wheel. Dropped my handphone. Phew. Luckily the mmc card didn't fall into the drain but something else did(or maybe it's juz the shadow). Now my handphone makes funny sounds when i shake it. Hmm.. not bad another new value-dropped function. Nextwas food poisoning. Haizz.. Buden at least i get to see ppl these days. Hehe. I do believe in affinity n some other things now. ;)

Good Nite. Good Luck. WeiXin blesses u :D

Sweet dreams too ;)

*wham!* *WHAM!* *tiOnK!*

*drool* WAhahaha...

The wheel spins.

2005-07-21T15:58:00.000+08:00

Hohoho.. A new phase in life; A great spin on the wheel of fortune. My life's gotten better n hopefully it will be even better so that i can help others take their shot at life too. Hehe. Another wish came true on my wishlist!

Hmm.. Was late yest. for maths paper by 45mins and had 45mins more to go. Settled down n finished the paper in 20mins.hehe worried for nothing. Actually there was a traffic accident of sorts i guess. Waited a long time for the bus only to realise theres a major jam. Woah.. waited for a long time for the jam to clear only to jam again. Had to run in the downpour to take another bus in reverse direction back to MRT station. !@#$ hehe.. hope to get 100 for the test. NERD's going to try out the food that comes out of my other hole if i scored better den him! hehehe. Im waiting~ Wahahaha.. going to eat lots of garlic n maybe constipate for him! :DD

Hmm.. met ben n end up going to creative building wif him.. haix. Chi qing nan zi. Wish all the best for him n shan(not u nigger :D). haha juz joking.

Hmm.. went to nyp today to play badmt wif wl. Hehe.. can't be considered training cuz it wasn't serious play. Think got some hope le.(to get to semi-finals) Hmm.. brought wl to my uncle's barber shop after that for some restyling! hehe. not much diff. though, juz spiked n some changes..hehe maybe coz evian jie was in a foul mood and that we didn't specify enuff on having a major revamp :D

Got home n had poked my nose into some discussions on my uncle's shop..hehe. Got lots of ideas on settling the issue. Dun see why they nid to make it so complicated and can't settle it peacefully. Gave suggestions but no-one would really listen to me i guess..hehe. Hope i still get to have Evian to cut my hair! She's the best. Anywae hope to convince my uncle. Hope for success.

Hmm.. wad else.. oh.. the outing. Haix. Can't be settled properly.. o well. anywae i may not be going for some personal reasons. Hope everyone will have fun :D

Yeah. Getting healthier! hehe.

Btw. JASON LAM. u lump from an ass. Visited my blog but didn't contact me. U !@#$ s-hole ..haha remember to tag ur hp no. when u drop by again. Tot u went back to study in malaysia le.

Waa... wasted

2005-07-19T13:50:00.000+08:00

Waaa.....exam's off at 12.30pm. Waited till 6.30 for ninja-do training but there turned out to be none.. ><"... wth?? lol. Surfed SPI and sfog.com for paranormal stuff. Esp. SPI..hehe i believe SPI to be 100% credible.. while i dun really trust sfog.com. Lots of scary stuff..hehe surfed for 3-4 hours on them....zzz... well at least i help my classmate in maths n dragged derrick along to sch wif me! hehehe... paiseh paiseh derrick.

Hmm.. after that went to eat and remove my stitches together wif derrick. HEhe.. i tink the doc gave me a discount again! hehe. Maybe im too cute... *blushes* HAha. Ok la. If u smile n joke at ppl in a very genuine way.. u will sort of rub off ur optimism to them! hehe.. feels good to see smiles. *so sweet..*

Waa.. my uncle wans me to accompany him n auntie n her mum n sis on sat. :(( wonder if i can still train my badmt. Hehe.. Ben's b.dae is coming! WOAH! 3DAYS 2 NITE CHALET!! WEEE!!! wa.. nidda lend him a heafty sum of $$.. for some preparations. hehe.. nv do much for tis frenly n innocent cutie of mine.. haha so hope this will ease his burden!

Waa.. so retarded now. Hehe.. not enuff sleep again.. wa haven't study for maths. Hehe.. lucky got foundation. tink will sleep soon after some workout n chattin! Good Nite!

Juz tweeting around

2005-07-17T08:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. It's 5.12pm. Slept for 2 hours yest. Hehe.. Went for badmt with loongi, chih n fred in the morning till noon n hung around till 2+pm.. hmm it's been a long time since i last hung out near void decks and neighbourly areas.. Hmm.. wonder how jason is now.

hehe den didn't feel lik goin home so went for a walk instead around the more natural areas of my neighbourhood.. Woot. Suddenly recalled the days in marsiling when we played street soccer under the hot sun.. Woah spend 1.5 hour walking around n soaking up the sunlight..hehe it feels so warm n pleasant

.. nothing to eat..wahh... when can i regain my proper bodyweight??? noooo....

Study hard! Work Hard! So that u can play harder later on in life! Yea! Gogogo! hehe.. off to study le.

Good->Bad->Great day!

2005-07-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

Haha.. juz took my bath. Hmm.. today ma.. begining of the day was quite jialat de.. actually felt good n refreshed in the morning but as i tot of the sad things in bed.. i felt sapped. Den read abit of Mushashi before talking to my bro. He started on spiritual n philosophical stuff again.. ok so we talked abt it. Hmm.. didn't quite enjoy it. Haiz. Maybe its our situation and upbringing that brings us to these topics. He fear no ghosts but he fears people(eg. winning him). I guess one of them is me.

Den suddenly i had to acc. my grandpa to see the doc at geylang.. Wa.. thats damn far... den there goes my whole day. After dat went for a haircut n help my father to close the shop.

Hehe.. was settled down n doing my ELTECH tutorial (finally)when chris called:"Hey. We're in woodlands now. 888 Plaza. We are walking over to your place....." hehe.. so touched by them. Met them along the way to 888 plaza instead. They had a "walk-walk" initally at 7pm.. but i didn't go and told them i was feeling low n didn't want to be a wet blanket. Hehe.. but they came along to find me.. Hehe.. left my Andy Lau songs on, my online tutorial halfway done n my labtop on and wore a shirt, my necklace n sprint off to meet them... hehe.. Was feeling down n sleepy but ecstasy coursed through my body after i recieved the call. Hehe.. never sprint for so long n so far before.. in slippers somemore. Hehe.. den they haven't reach so i ran to meet them along the road. Hehe.. Went back home for jeans n also a windbreaker for xiang xiang den went back..woah.. nv knew our epic senior was intending another exploration after 1am..hehe.. he intended to pick our other seniors up at bishan after their work but they decided to stay somewhere to study instead..woah.. thats lik 1+pm..hehe. So we went to an abandoned hospital in woodlands area n did some exploration.. hehe nothing much. At first i saw the joss paper den saw the red drop stains along the staircase which i tot it was blood. It was kinda eerrie but after knowing its plant dye.. it wasn't anymore. wah.. lol got another 2 group of explorers lik us i tink. hehe one was on the rooftop but we avoided meeting wif them coz we dunnoe if they r hostile. Den we saw another indian family..lol really a family.. even got a indian kid sucking his thumb..lol.. wad a place to choose for a family outing. Buden i did had a stange encounter towards the end. I saw a black shadow(? or lizard?) disappering across the ground in a flash den was lik tapped(accidentally by my fren i tink) den i heard sounds coming from the court yard. N so i was looking in the direction slantly behind the two walls when suddenly some black thing came out of the wall juz infront of me n disappear back again.. kinda lik peeping on me(as i peeked into the courtyard). wth?? hmm can't exactly remember coz it was an split instant. Can't be a shadow or a lizard. hehe.. wierd.. didn't see anything when i shot another look back when we were about to move thr the fence.

Den i tot that was the end of our adventure.. but NO.. We went on to Old changi hospital... lol wtf? we went from woodlands back to changi... lol... But den really enjoyed myself. Especially the ride in the lorry along the wide expressway, under the rainny and open nitesky. Woah.. quite a big rain..hehe chilling but invigorating. Went to the hospital but went back to changi village for a hot drink... wa.. damn paiseh when stomach ached due to coldness n perhaps running wif a stomach full of milo... damn it.. that ruin the rest of my nite. Hehe.. We didn't enter changi hospital coz there were police n futhermore there were other explorers.. so we went back home soon after some chatting! At least we saw sexy she-males! hehe juz joking... but theres lots of them at changi village.

Yea. N so good nite. Hehe.. too "blur" to blog properly.. Nida wake up in less den an hour for badminton! ><"

Feeling blue.

2005-07-15T16:23:00.000+08:00

Hehe. felt blue for the whole day. Didn't do much constructive stuff today. Hmm. Old problems. Driving me back into depression. But i shall no yield. I will change them.

Hmm.. Today's ninja-do. Wtf. Haiz only 2 seniors came. Its alrite. But it's really demoralizing to have a white belt senior do all types of gl things... ok he's big but by throwing his weight around screams out how minute the size of your brain is. No one really gives a damn abt him. Haiz.. can't imagine one of our council member is this low brain to size ratio chubby-saur.. zz

Hehe.. luckily JQ came! Hehe.. he immediatly cleared up the mess in the chorographed fighting n other stuffs. Haix. Felt so low. Wat the hell.. i was suppose to do either knife defense or anything.. but end up wtf? Actually i can choose to do chopping of the sugarcane but i let derrick take it instead coz i tink he wanted to try it. Den all the performance slots are taken up. HAIx... even the jokers who didn't commit to ninja-do n can't do proper punching got in coz they volunteered for it when i was suppose to do knife defense... AGHHHH WAT THE???? I was kinda guaranteed a role... but now the whole thing is messed up. Haizz... buden hopefully our seniors can clear up the performance thingy on monday. Haiz... felt so left out n disappointed.

Hmm.. Wad else can i say? Haix. Sad sad day. But im feeling better now. Hmm.. a nite exploration tomorrow! hehe.. wanted to join but im afraid i'd be a wet blanket n had other reasons. Hmm.. maybe next time bah. Haix.. missed the fun.

I shan't yield to fate. I shall contain my hatred... The future will be fine... We shall see..

Good nite.

Breaks... Stitches n stuff

2005-07-13T19:21:00.000+08:00

Yea.. its the breaks. Hehe.. long time no blog. Ain't in good mood now.. got pissed by some ppl..

Hmm.. Last thurs was a kinda of a torture..hehe find it hard to move coz i was half-dozin wif my eyes awide. Caught four hours of sleep onli and had 2 swimmin sessions. Improved by quite alot though didn't practise swimmin for weeks. Hmm.. getting healthier.. puttin on weight n startin to turn pink at times. Hehe.. we got campus run on thurs. managed to complete it n do the physical trainings.. zzz.. din't bother to spar..hehe too sleepy to.. wanted to be target practise for ciara.. but too sleepy hehe..

Sat- Slack while trying to burn dvd into my com.
Sun-Slack again while trying to burn. Went for badmt wif freddie, shenghong, hanling n weiloong at woodlands cc in the nite. Haiz.. nid 2 step up alot on badmt training.. but no time. Tink my doubles wif josh is gone-case.

Mon- Went to sch early for study grp wif ninja-do frens :) hehe reached on time but everyone's late.. :( at least xiang xiang got there soon after.. hehe.. Went for ninja-do afterwards.. n got 4 stitches for failing to do commando pushup.. haiz.. f***.. I'm damn sure i can do it de loh.. wtf.. i was so blur at that time.. i lifted off ground at low level for clapping infront of chest de.. den i slowly process the thought of moving my hands to the back to clap.. den i did it. I tot "Huh? no kick" den i hit my chin on the floor. wat the.. i should have lifted myself high into the air.. Actually not upset abt it but instead felt quite upbeat n optimistic. Sumore my ninja frens sent me off to the clinic after dinner again when i bled again. (bleeding wassn't suppose to happen after a good stitching) (N the nurses had a shock at the amount of ppl moving in with me..hehe) Den had some great chatting wif the nurse n doc during my entire visit there execpt when he was sewing my 'gapping wound' or 'second mouth'. Den started a chat happily wif a mr potato whom im not really familar wif when returning home wif chris n jingquan. He actually remembered me n stated that i changed alot. He played soccer outside wdls swimmin complex. Den had a really enjoyable chat. Hehe... he said im the type that will get lots of suitors in the future! Trust him. He said. He ate more salt den we ate rice and he get pricked by love ten more years den us. hehehe.. *blushes*

But some guy juz pissed me off tis nite abt it. He asked: "Why did u get stitches?" den i explained everything to him. Den nb. He said "Weakling." Next, "U got study wif your ninja frens?" He wanted to jio me for remedial. I tot he was pulling some lame joke at first. 'Weakling' Nb. So i was waiting for the "Juz jokin" thing, but there came nothing else. WTF? buden on careful recall : He's learning rugby. He's slightly big. Ok. He wanted to join jc. He's got 15 for L1R4. 8 for english so his other subjects is quite good. Nb. Maybe i was wrong. Maybe he's one of those egoistic n arrogant types. ok i will keep my cool n wait for sch reopen to find out wad he means. Cb. I wun hesitate to jio him to a physical confrontation if he piss me off again. I noe im thin. But i wun allow myself to be insulted to be a pushover or a weakling. Normally im very patient, but not for today. Simply short circuited. Actually im more pissed over how some ppl can have some F***ed-up attitude towards others instead of being insulted. Major disappointment for me in people. At least i met alot of nice ppl(who r mostly older) to counter my anger n disappointment in people which i had for so many many years.... maybe juz becoz im more philosophical. Philosophers get to see n feel things people normally dun unless they get into some life crisis.

Haix. Anyway, was supposed to do knife defense for performance de. Hehe.. something new.. buden the ex-president n new president n our dearest great grand senior seem to have differnet ideas abt the ninja performance and who's to perform wad etc. Hmm.. how lei? So now its either knife defense for me or chorographed movie sparring or kata or sugarcane breaking.

Hmm.. Went for study group today again. Hehe.. Didn't study much. Buden had quite a nice time(im sleepy though for the day..hehe juz dun lik staying indoors. esp in air-con room for too long). Got home at 11++pm. Did quite some nice stuffs.. hehe. haha got into some trouble with the librarian n some other stuffs. But not feeling humorous enuff to blog down.. haiz..

K le. Good Nite! Sweet Dreams.

Wahaha.. juz finish chatting on phone wif a very cute gal ;) wa.. really a hyper-active n sunshine gal.. hehe. A very sweet ending to a bitter nite..

Finally meet up ;)

2005-07-08T02:34:00.000+08:00

Hehe.. mock test today. Think get 60+% bahx..hehe but i tink i get learned 110% from the mock-test! :D happy~

Hmm.. Went for eltech didn't do much..hehe but downloaded cool wallpapers.. Kawaii neh!

Hehe.. Den went for a meal den waited for my CATS project... seriously i dun _stand why i waste time there... lol lousy smart ass... :P

Haha.. nevertheless got a very yando fren from CATS waiting for me juz outside my cubicle in the toilet..haha stalker! Den we talked rubbish.. haha he wanna play Warcraft but my "pro-ness" in getting my own warcraft started made him surrender..haha den we listened to songs n talk cock while waiting for haochih. HEhe.. Ya! i signed up for badmt competition.hehe Wish me Luck! Also i joined doubles with haochih. Yea.

Ok. Reached cwp.hehe. Finally get 2 see u guys. Pekhua, Weiloong, Ben, Neth, Seerning, Pekhua, Jieying and siewfOng. Wa.. pizza hut.. so rich sia.. hehe.. k la.. happy to c everyone still being the same i last saw them. Hehe.. Ben n neth grew more yandao le.. Wa Yz trying to hook more gals into his trap liaoz with his new hairstyle.. act cute seh.. haha :P Hmm.. but wl lei.. haha ur hairstyle u noe la.. hahaha ask u to come my uncle's shop u dun wan to wait...c la. O ya.. n Pek grew more sexy liao..haha although figure still the same! ^-^ Glad to c u all! HEhe.. i will regret if i didn't meet u guys.

Watched "To Be with u" the movie after with them n haochih. Hehe.. quite a nice show. Actually i thought it was slightly lacking in content n depth until i saw the ending part..hehe a twist! i lik! Kinda nice movie but im not a movie go-er so im not a good judge :P

Yea. Needa do lots of physical stuff tmr.. waa... die le.. Cya!

Sweet Dreams.

Great Day. ^_______^

2005-07-05T15:18:00.000+08:00

haha.. took practical today. Missed lesson for dunno how many times.. think only got 50% attendance. Hehe. Anyway i tink i did well.. except that my entire circuit DIDN"T work. !@#$!! BUT sir said that it's good n it SHOULD. Hmm.. wat the hell? i explained the circuit it respectively to my diagram. Buden circuit still doesn't work. So i dun noe whether i will get penalised. Haiyo. How come lik that de.

Hehe.. Den went for ninja-do! Wee! hehe we got our Gi today! Muhaha.. I got my Gi. Wahaha.. Hot. Hot. White. HeheHex.. *drool* Hehe... got my hands on it. Woah! (now we r offically ninjas- in the training..hehex)

Haha.. den we did quite alot of things today. HEhe.. i lik the training and running on the track. Running on the track during the evenings always make me feel so GOOD. Hehe.. I feel lik im a penguin. Although i can't fly.. im as happy and free as a bird (should be)!

Hehe.. i tink i can put my leg behind my head now. WAhaha.. dun wanna try it nor do i wanna imagine it. Hehe.. gross. Yea.. my kicks n punches are stronger now. Woah. Got sparring today.. Hehe injured mark n wei wen. I tink not bad injuries la. Poor mark kanna kicked and nose bleed by our senior...haiz.. why he challenge him.. he's not the careful type de. Stick to me mah.. only im so gentle n loving.. juz that sometimes have accidents only. :D. buden too we rou le. Cuz Jing Quan said that i lik afraid to fight lik that. Wa.. kanna fatal injury by wei wena.. we got a double KO. HEhe i puched the middle of WeiWen's eyes(accidentally) while he front kick my groin..haha.. really BOWED before him when we were dismissed. Hehe.. buden not his fault. It was mine cuz i hit his eyes mah.. den he WA!! KICK! den KO.

Hmm didn't go for supper cuz got test tmr.(im screwed) Hehe.. haven't take out my contacts n brush teeth yet :P Hmm.. nid 2 wake up early tmr coz meeting two early birds. Elaine n Kuok..hehe So.. Good nite! Muacks.

Good Nite. Swit dreams

I believe i can fly~ i believe i can touch the sky~

Thursday...

2005-07-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

Very sleepy now. Will keep a short blog ;)

Got our ninja-do club shirt todae! haha... after such a long period of anticipation. Den todae's the first time our new ninja leaders lead us in our physical training. :D Today's training is more serious(as in not slacky). I lik ^-^. We did alot more of pushups and situps and stuff. Hehe. This is the way to go. A balance of welfare n serious spirit is the way to go.

Haha and singing nursery rythemes is really much more fun den juz counting during strains n pushups. Ha.. we sang little indians, london bridge and twinkle star!(chinese n english buden malay version dunno how to sing..haha) Yea great! N we had a kinda lik sumo session after the training for some fun :D it's new to ninja-do n it's contributed by our new leaders. Its fun! haha somemore it trains our reflexes, strength and combat awareness. Great idea.

Went for supper after that. :) we are havin our performance soon n i hope 2 b one of the performancers :) Now im starting to go futher in my physical training. This weekend n next week end's schedule is packed. Haiz.. when can i catch up on sch work? I hope to learn swimming on sundae but common test's next week.. Omg.. practicals... tink i can pass all my modules but i may not be able to ace in all.

O ya. And we should really aid our new leaders as much as possible. Not juz for our leaders but for our club. So hope everyone would be very enthu n on(lik jing quan.. our great grand senior). N hope everyone show more spirit by shouting out loud! haha

Hmm.. tml's lessons from 9 -4pm again.. haiz.. sianz. Damn slpy now.. sleep deprivated for so many days. haha no teeth brushing tonite :P

Swit Dreams.

Waaa.. Too busy to blog.

2005-06-30T12:43:00.000+08:00

WAhhh!!! Too Busy to blogg.... NOoo

So heres the wacko version

Wahahah!! Chalet FUN!! WeEeEE!!!!!!! We climbed fences n did illegal stuffs WEee!! We Flew off BICs!! Weee! I landed n run downslope (safely ^-^) while Chris(for u guys' info, Yong Chuan) bit mud and my senior HAN LUN bounced down on his butt.. Weee! haha! Lots of injurys n casualties among our ninja guys! Weee! Chalet.. Hai.. really alot of stuff to share buden no time :(

Ee... Mondae didn't go to sch coz high fever! Wee! i reached home on sundae, 4+ pm.. too tired to do anything n didn't wan to slp so played Warcraft. Cannot take it den fell asleep as soon as i moved my labby to another seat. Next thing i knew is that im sleeping under full heat of a 12+ sun. Woah.. i got hit by rain the other day n didn't bathe... Noo... high fever. My grandma could'nt wake me up in the morning.. She slapped me(!@#$ wet my face) and pinched me..haha. Den she gave up and dig my left n rite ear instead(saves time)..LOL! i was sub-concious. My father came but couldn't wake me too.

Wahaha.. Den yest's Wushu n Ninja's AGM. Haiz.. Wad can i say. So sweet yet so sour. Our year 3 senoirs are going soon i guess. They r so fun.. :( My salutes to Yu Hua, Han lun, Raymond and Geradine. :(( Hope our ninja family will be as close after they went off for their own joureys. John's our new president. I'm sure he will do his best to lead us well. Now. We need more members. ON members... :) Jin Quan's really nice... haiz.. if only they could stay forever. O ya! N we had our stackin on Yu hua(x2) and our new logistics ic. Wahaha! Fun!! if only we could pile to the ceiling without anyone dying. Hahaha. Feels good to be tall. U're always on top of the pile..Wahaha :P Lets make stacking our NP ninja tradition!! After every activity stack the logistics ic! or anyone else who got baztardz!! WAhaHaHa!!

Hmm... Went for supper yest. after AGM at ard beauty world. Hehe... The chalet really gel-ed us well. Can't imagine how heart aching i would felt if i didn't go for it.

Haha todae during shower i suddenly got lots of inspiration! EUREKA!! I found my AIMS!! WAhAhaHa! Hmm.. noww im inspired to do stuffs now. Train. Train. Train. Study. Study. Study. Learn. Learn. Talk. Talk. Have initiative. Things are actually very simple :D.

Good Nite.

Swit Dreams.

Lookin forward to another Ninja training camp!wEee!! i wan a 5 day one!!

To the seas and beyond!!!

2005-06-24T15:09:00.000+08:00

Weee.. Chalet's starting tmr..hah hah.. gonna smuggle stuff inside..weee!

Hmm.. Todae mah.. went to sch in the morning.. but not feeling well so take the mrt from dover back to marsiling and swim at marsiling instead. Cuz i got Sports and wellness in morning mah.. den nv attend.. so went swimming on my own. Hmm.. gonna retake swimming next semester.

Eh.. spent one hr eating noodles at coffeeshop coz i burnt my togue.. ><" Den went home slp from 11.30- 3.30 den went to buy a necklace at 77th street. Woo.. haha kinda cool necklace.. it reads "Invincible" haha.. hope no one kicks my ass becuz of tis :P

Hehe.. traveled back for Ninja-do n went supper! Weee! hehe i tink im getting healthier n my old injury is subsiding. Hoho.. can kick better now. Oooh... The Ninja's annual meeting is on Monday. HAiz.. Seniors' stepping down to pass responsibility to us.. Den heard from great grand senior we going to perform maybe during august or nov. Weee.. Hehe going to get xtra trainings... HEhe i Lik! :P

Gud Nite. Swit Dreams. :D

Im healthy no more...

2005-06-21T15:35:00.000+08:00

Zzz.. went for ninja-do todae. Dun feel strain from the training.. but juz feel so tired n sleepy. Maybe due 2 having 4 hours of sleep yest. or maybe due to a boring day in poly, buden juz felt that im not as healthy as i used to be. My quads are gone. My calves are gone. My lung capacity shrunk. I get tired due to inadequate air easily. Though im slightly bigger now but im healthy no more... haiz. Unlike last year's holidays.. working at the hotel, lifting off 5 chairs, carrying the dance floor... sweating n working with ease. Now i feel so sapped and lethagic. Haizz... Maybe its juz fatigue or the long sickness i got. O ya... went 2 c doc yest wif my grandpa and uncle. The chinese sensei said that im overly fatigued and had drunk too much cold stuff... and after measuring both my wrists for a long time, curiously concluded that he can't feel any "Qi" in me. That makes me worse den a sick paitent. Zzz... can't feel any "internal energy" not more. Though i tink this is a temporal problem. O ya n my old injury still hurts.. haiz.

Hope to get healthy within 2weeks. And get fit within 1month. Den get to acceptable weight within 3months..hehe

O ya... chalet's tis fridae, sat, sundae. Haiz not much year one on.. most unconfirmed. Sum of the more on guys can't come cuz of test n stuff.. Wee... if we wanna get there wif our great-grand senior, we needa meet at harbour front by 12.30pm. Cool. My lesson ends at 4pm. Hmm... Pon? :D

Good Nite. Sweet Dreams.

Im healthy no more...

2005-06-21T00:19:00.000+08:00

Fridae. Sch's Out!

2005-06-18T17:25:00.000+08:00

Wee.. zzz.. sleepy

Keep a brief blog todae :P Studied todae. Got CS. Played Cs. Went lesson. Listen. Break time. Cs(i can't T^T). Sch's out. Cs. Get daemon tools. Get Warcraft crack. Plae Warcraft. 6+ take bus wif Eddie, Immanuel home. ZZz.. Chatted. Ghost. Went home.

O ya. It's super cramp on the way to poly todae. GraGhhh!! Get tickled in the nose by the ponytail of an indian woman for 5 MRT stations.. WoOt!! Left, Rite, Left, Rite.. LoL.. wat the HELL?! Wahaha..

Hmm.. wanna swim tmr. but wanna acc. grandpa for morning walk at abt 6 den sen him to c doc with dad at a buddhist temple far far awae. Den maybe stand in at the shop for my dad. ><" Tink i will drown on sundae when i swim.

Good Nite.

Tired, heart aching but fun dae!

2005-06-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

Woah.. Overspent todae n yest. Spent a total of hmm.. lets c..
Yest:
Pool- $6, $3.20 on treats. + $4+ $6+ on food?
transport $$ 6 + $$$ 9..
charity: $2
Total: $36+ ><" Really need my EzLink student card soon............... Hmm.. very sleep-deprived now... can't tink straight.. hehe. Yea thx kenneth.. thanks for giving me isonomia man... i knew i could depend on u...lol (juz joking) Got a call from kenneth yest. at 11+ den gotta noe dear ning mei mei coming to sch todae.. haha.. long time no see.. really glad 2 c u wor ning mei... haha last time was months ago.. so nice of u to travel to s'pore to visit kor(?) :P Haha finally pat ur head today! Haha! now finally offically become ur kor :P Grow more chubby le wor! haha! Kor like!!! eee! so cute!! let kor pinch ur cheeks!! HAha :D Hmm.. Went to sch todae but didn't swim coz not feeling well.. haha wth.. so spend the whole time visualising myself swimming n watching others swim. ^^ (Visualisation is not crap. It works :P) Den went for creativity class.. hah hah... wth?! my teammates only we two talking.. me n a smart ass(i'm mean :P) den the other 3 quiet quiet :( HAha... prepared to get low grading for the project le... Dastards... !@#$

HEhe.. atleast got a fren in my group or creativity class... more tou yuan la(got more affinity). He's name is Evan..hah hah.. gotta noe he got lik 15 for L1R4.. D7 for english..haha lik weiloong case.. he damn heart ache when he mention it..hah hah.. den shared with him abit of my history too.. since we accidentally touched on why i may have stayed for one year over some REASONs... Nice chap. I Lik!

Hehe.. den went n met yanzhang. Den watch that daztard eat..hah hah.. wanna force me to eat n drink to acc. him.. Arghhh... yanzhang u small ass.. buahaha :P Munch down a bread instead to statisfy him.. ><" Haha den saw his funny guy dressed up as a blood droplet with four black limbs sticking out with two white gloves.. damn funny sia.. hahaha... Blood donation drive coming bahx. Gonna donate blood if possible.. hope i dun haf Hep. B or anything. Hehe... Den went for a shower! Weee!! so relaxing.. den combed a new hairstyle... sides swept forward, top too, den spiked all-over. Kinda nice buden didn't have spray.. so my hair kinda flatten by gravity... ><" Almost become "San Mao"(dunno u guys watched the show.. but that kid got 3 strands of hair..hah hah) LoL.. today im lik the main character sia... get so much sms.. haha den headache.. need to reply 3-4 ppl at one time.. headache. ><" Played pool for a while denn quickly rush to find Ning mei n Jieying at yishun.. but they were late by 15mins+... ><".. Gotta sing "Lonely" for 15mins.. lol wth? i dun noe the lyrics.. repeat the same few sentences only...ArgHh!! Hmm.. den chatted wif Ning mei.. den send her off to cinema to meet Kenneth n Weiloong.. den went back to wdls( $_$") Den played pool.. hehe luckily YZ "fang shui"(give chance) HEhe... getta train.. tink improve le alot le wor! haha buden still lousy :P O ya met Grace Shak on the way in mrt wor! haha.. grew much prettier le... haha.. n much much more DEMURE.. :P Heart throbber bahx. :D

Hmm.. Den went for ninja... late by 40 mins. Missed most of the physical training :(( While.. will train on tmr, sat n sun. Damn.. i can't do abs related stuff on concrete floor coz my public bone will hurt. Ouch. Den went for supper..hah hah.. Chalet on ubin confirmed, next fri, sat, sun. Haha pretty hardcore huh? i lik! Hope more enthu guys will go. Only me n YC n Joyce^-^ confirmed now. Wahh... can't take it anymore.. im not feeling sleepy but i feel so dazed..hah hah.. going to b really blur tmr. O ya n saw elaine during supper woh.. buden waited for the others so didn't catch up with her.

Hmm.. o ya n chatted wif Yong Chuan on our way home.. He's a nice chap wad.. haiz. sometime i hate class things. Its kinda lik politics. haiz. Honestly Secondary sch's class was a bit f-ed up for him, and maybe a bit luckier for me. Reality is always grey n shaded with TONs(not tonEs) of misunderstanding. He's got his fair share of life.. hah hah.. Guess he really miss his ex. Me too if im in his situation. HEhe had my arm around him while he talked.. felt lik a bro. Den hmm.. Haiz.. me too.. i had my own fair share of life. I have comed a long long way.. Many times seemingly out of a window. I shall live my life well after dying for so long. I can feel it truely now. Rebirth. Self confidence Wei Xin. Hate others not. Heck care abt ignorant n egoistic brats. Live ur life well and touch others the way others had not touched urs. U must be strong. Den can u wipe other's tears,shoulder their weights and ask dem to radiate the smile of urs. (A little too dramatic? hope others will not nid my care.. cause it happens only when bad things did)

Gotta stop being nostalgic. Nid to wake up tmr at 6.30 tmr.. wanna reach class early n with a bright sparkling smile. :D

Good Nite. Sweet Dreams. :)

Haiz.. haden't seen my grandpa for two daes le..

Poor grandpa...

2005-06-15T16:25:00.000+08:00

Poor grandpa.. had a fall yest. about 8+pm.. when i was still in ngee ann kicking n rolling awae... hmm.. maybe thats how i get a injury out of the blue? haha nay..

My uncle got a 4 legged walking-aid for him and grandpa ain't happy with it.. he said that its ugly.. o well... tried to brighten things up as soon as i knew of wad happened... at least my grandpa issn't moody.. he's juz too tired.. poor grandpa's got himself bruises n wounds.. sad.. he can't even walk properly(with the aid) or lie in bed properly(Bad to worse). He's lik so fragile in my arms..(though he's big, he's lik a vulnerable baby in my arms.. hurts me..) Nid to move him about myself... haiz... buden managed to cheer him up alittle... (he actually BIT my finger.. hehe grandson n grandpa humor :P) suddenly sparked a fear in me... never to.. see or touch again... touchwood... Maybe i should borrow some papers or book from elaine to get alittle more info. on nursing old ppl. Haiz.

Hmm.. todae's quite a smooth sailing day. Didn't talk much in the morning n afternoon cause wasn't feeling well.. buden get kinda crazy in the later part of the day.. LoL Pinched Eddie's cheeks..haha damn funny... wad a nice n cute chap. I luv easy going guys(BFGs too :D).

Yeah... tmr's lesson starts at 2... hehe getta sleep more~ Nid it lots... Going for pool tmr aft sch! Man.. peak rate.. ><" O well... long time nv meet u guys le.. hehe no excuse... Hope to see Ning mei mei too.. on either thurs or sat ;)

I wish. Wish i could pluck a single sparkle in the skies and place it in my grandpa's palms. So that i might watch his face crease with wonder n delight, illuminated and awashed from gloom of pain and strain.. I wish...How i wished; under a starry, lonely nite.

Good nite. Good luck. Swit dreams...

Sleeping soon..

2005-06-14T15:24:00.000+08:00

Wahaha.. juz got home and took my shower from ninja supper.. hehe another great session.. todae we learnt more n trained more! ^_^ buden kinda sad that my old injury kicked in towards the end. Hehe.. at least i can roll properly now. Waa... can't kick anymore.. kick lik a sissy.. hehe (mind u.. sissy wx still can kick properly hor) den cannot do kazuku(?) kick properly wif left n rite leg cuz of my injury. (nid to turn 360 degree) Wahha... so ps cuz i was the last guy to try out kicking den everyone was watching n waiting for me.. lol... *blushes*

Weee! We got a chalet tis 23 or so i tink.. at puala ubin.. yea! Mosquito feeding time dudes! Muz be on wohx..haha Wth... stupid senior.. hehe wad gui zhu yi is that nidda take boat n stay at ubin to feed mosquito.. haha dirty but i like :P

K bahx.. gotta sleep le.. woke up so early today.. tmr need to wake up at 6.. tink not going to find kuok n elaine le... *yawnz*

Good nite. Swit Dreams.

Off to sch

2005-06-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

Juz finished my work.. @_@ C programming.. all the assignments since last last week.. Hah.. hah... Going off to prepare for sch now :P

Another 10 hours to Sundae..

2005-06-12T06:06:00.000+08:00

Juz woke up from a dream.. still feeling shaken. Actually wanna write it down as compo de budden tink better not. A wierd dream.. a premonition? Hope not..

Hmm.. cuz i was very tired(from the week) so maybe thats why i felt very "blur" in my dream too. Fell asleep in the bus which i took around my neighbourhood. Den i felt it was marsiling but i hadn't seen it b4. I was left wif the busdriver n me. Den looking out of the window on the right, I saw christian graves.. white slender crucifixes sticking lowly out of the ground. Den after a few dazed moments, i saw tablets, each wif about 8 names sticking solemnly out of the ground with patches of green grass inbetween. I could remember it was sunny n I felt ordinary and remember myself stopping at wondering how a small plot of land should 8 ppl out of respect. Den.. the bus turned. Somehow i entered a seemingly dark area. Saw two indian mothers playing pingpong on a small, toy-lik pingpong table with their grocery next to them. It seems to be in a wide enclosed area, with concrete bricks(?). Den a shop with an infinite variety of goods. It was dark.. lik a dark temple or altar（on reflection) den when i look back, the indians and the table was gone(ghost?) Den suddenly i alighted the bus. I wandered along the shops. It was sunny again i tink, den there was quite a crowd, but i dun remember brushing against anyone. Den when i looked to my left along the shops. I walked by a line of life sized coffins. Sumhow i had a notion that they are "Guan Yin" coffins. Buden it had figures of white(ivory?), youngsters n men, with sideparting that covered their forehead and eyes. Had a sinister when walking pass them. The coffin of a young man stood out in my mind. Its face. Walked on(i can't recall the others) Den at the end of path, there was a turn. I saw buddhist necklaces n various charms. Went over to look. Had this feeling of something moving nearer n nearer to me as i looked at the charms. It seemed dark. It was at this seemly critical moment that my phone rang, breaking my dream. Wierd dream indeed. On reflection, everything points to death. It was a vivid dream full of feelings n certian "memorable" n "outstanding" scenes. Esp the graves, the dark enclosure, the coffin and the charms. I wonder if its a premonition. My brother has a side parting n so did i when i last time. On reflection, all the males in our paternal family except my cousin has side parting. A line of coffins? Side parting? My extended family? Man.. im tinkin too much.

Hmm.. time to get to my studies. Hope to catch up n scan through next week's topics by this weekend. I'm going to learn diligence from my china classmates. Hope to enter the U n make my grandparents n parents proud :) and the best way to do it is to start early.. dun wan roll downhill in another snowball lik tat in secondary.

Man.. my english's deteriorating. Maybe i should start writing compos on my labby when im free(n hopefull sell them to book publishers for pocket $$!) :D

O ya n im losing all the wonder n inspirations i had when i was younger. Think everyone does bah.. when we all live in a left-brained world. No one cares i guess :(

Kinda nice week! :P

2005-06-11T11:07:00.000+08:00

Haha.. staying over at uncle house tonite.. gonna do my homework n stuff.. :P

Wee! went for supper yest. wif our ninja family :D. Lol.. went to mac for supper.. i didn't eat though. HAha.. the seniors r really cool n fun wor.. ^.^ im so lucky to haf dem.. makes me wanna be lik them next time when i become the senior. Kinda sad John suddenly left in a fit of angry.. buden no one should blame him.. he wassn't in a gud mood..

Yea.. im aching all over from yest. n the last training. My butt hurts.. my shoulder n hips hurt, my left thumb too.. n my hamstring is strained from the swimmin training n overstreching on monday.. lol feel gud though :P

Hmm today ma.. wore my lucky shirt! My red-black n white Addidas t-shirt ^-^ makes me see things so colourfully. Talk quite alot todae.. haha lectures todae are quite relaxing bahx (no slack horx :P).. suddenly got tis notion lei.. female lecturers seem awfully uptight.. male lecturers are so "shui he" "shui bian".. not slackers hor mind u.. if got prob can ask dem de.. they will be very happy to help out de.

Hmm.. actually alot of stuff happen la.. buden lazy 2 blog *^-^*.. gonna bring pingpong bats, books (n stuff from jc) n warcraft 3d next week.. Work hard.. PLAY HARDER!! O juz gotta noe theres more sch stuff to do.. lol k bahx.. gonna slp late todae.. ><" bad for health..

CHARGEEEEeee!!

If only the sickness in my heart will go awae..

Ciao~ time to choke some yucky stuff my granny cooked down my throat ><"

Sick & Down..

2005-06-08T06:44:00.000+08:00

Juz reached home no long ago.. tapping into other ppl's wireless network now.. so i can't download songs etc. cuz i will be stealing other ppl's bandwidth n lag them... Came home early today 1/2 due to being sick n 1/2 due to feeling down.

Haha.. yesterday was fun.. took a shower n attended ninja-do feeling fresh n gud. Learned quite alot though some were taught last week when i was absent. We were given the oppotunity to break tiles n sugar cane though i didn't get to try the sugarcanes but i managed to eat some. :D
O ya n we had supper.. Cool :D

Haha.. we had free sparring sessions.. it was fun :D First was Yong Chuan n Mark(?).. den it was another 2 guys using Taewondo stances n styles. Spectacular n very agressive. Gud fight. Den it was me n another year 3 junior lik us. Hehe.. first time to spar.. feel excited n awkward at first.. lol (*blushes*) But the other guy came quite quickly.. his eyes showed determination under the helmet. Good spirit. He was on constant offence though his attacks were quite easy to avoid n not very forceful. He manage to hit me more den me hitting him. I was quite defensive cuz i didn't noe what to do..haha dun wanna embarass myself *blush*. Buden i tried some kicks n back-punches which im quite statisfied with. I managed to kick him back wih some force and knock him back with some punches. Felt quite wasted cause i did not spar wif gud spirit.. haha.. hope i'll get to try again next week. Hmm. Got cheered up quite abit when the another guy whom i initally propose to spar with courteously commented that he was lucky not to fight me n that my kick would have gotten the other guy's face had he not defended it. Den another was that my senior asked me if i had "learned" before. He said my back-punch was quite gud n fast. :)

Got quite quiet this days becuz im not feeling well. Hope no one finds me unfrenly.. Suppose to meet Kuok n Elaine today.. buden cuz i was late by 2mins den i tot they went off without me so i went off, after looking for dem. Gotta noe that they were still back at the station.. waited for 15mins at marsiling mrt den did i noe i missed them. Met hao chih though.. quite a coincience.

Looking forward 2 thurs. Swimming + creativity lessons den 6.5 hours of break b4 cca starts. Haha wanna improve my kicks n punches. :P

:D

2005-06-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

Haha... Sleeping soon... Juz wanna blog for a while.

Hmm.. Went to c doc todae.. haha nice doc. Asked me first i wan mc for tmr. i said i dunnid it but i nid mcs for last week. Explained to him wat happen, faint, high fever, spit blood etc. den he wrote me a 4 day mc.. lol. Saves me my time n effort on writing a letter to convince the guy in charge.

Did nothing much bahx.. treated my grandparents wif dumplings on promotion..lol. Den did nothing much.. download softwares for my labby, homework. etc. Went 2 sleep n woke up from pain in my abdominal. Got too much "wind" from drinking too much "cooling stuff".. lol could play drum wif my stomach.

*Yawn* very sleepy now.. gonna take my medicine soon.. *yUcK!* That medicine is the worst tasting medicine i ever tasted.. i remembered puking it all over the floor 10 years ago.. lol thats how sucky it is.. can still remember it till now. Gonna drink it soon ><" help me!!

Haha.. kinda dumb hor? Insist on not seeing the doc till now.. suffered for nothing. Aiyo.. really need medicine one bahx i guess.. the sickness always comes back when u fall asleep or remain inactive.

Oh ya.. meeting Kuok n Elaine tmr.. Dun wanna b late ya? lol goin to wake up early tmr at 5:25am.

Gud Nite. Sleep tite. ;)

WeEee!

2005-06-05T14:31:00.000+08:00

Lol... Watching Tv on Channel U now in an aircon room, on my bed and using my labby while eating snacks n drinking... lol tis is LIFE man... Wahaha... staying @ my uncle house todae... woot! haha

Aghhh... still sick... buden now i tink i wun haf2 worry abt fever or other sickness now.. its juz the cough.. it juz goes off n be back again..tis nite wif extra fury... man.. my stomach is spliting into 6 from the coughing.. lol not bad huh...

Went 2 bank 2dae wif uncle.. lol so coincedental wor... met PohSim on the way...haha really a pleasant start to my day ;) Met up wif Freddie, Hao Chih and Wei Loong @ the coffee shop... UGHhhh...... WTH?!! lol watching Tv now.. Waaa! Jue Dui Super Star... wth?? ok i shan't say anything insultive... Wahaha.. buden feel kinda sad.. they seem kinda desperate 2 me... :P

Haha...Aniwae... went 2 swim wif the guys... haha did some training Freddie-style in medium pool wor... haha kinda fun! Wee! enjoyed the fun.. We did strecthings, n water-opposed training for arms, stomachs, backs n legs(basically everywhere)..haha it's really useful ;)

Wahh.. its really kinda uncomfortable to type on bed... hmm ok lets recount wad happen tis week..

Monday- Sick, spit out BLOOD in phlegm
Tues-Fever trying to get back
Weds-Coughing Begins, Fever steps back
Thurs-Coughing gets worse, spit out abit of blood in phlegm
Fri-Sch!

Wahaha.. Fridae's kinda interesting. Went early in the morning.. but still got late.. :*( .. Run quite alot... den somemore up n down stairs(chasing the wrong mrt n running back).. wanna puke for the whole morning cuz of the LOAD of my babe... she's 3kg, n her dear baggy is abt 4 or so i tink..wahh.. thats 7kg of load on oneside of my shoulder n i have to strain my abdominals to keep uprite.. not to mention the coughing... no wonder i felt lik puking

Lol got outside the class, knock, knock, look in den feel so guilty haha.. my classmates saw me den laugh (*-* china gals!) hehe.. went in drenched allover, even my forearm was glistering wif perspiration. Settled down nxt 2 Tao, haha kinda nice la.. buden tired n blur to talk much :(
Wee! kinda fun in poly. Haha happy 2 c everyone! :D Nothing much happen during my abscence..haha *relax* China gals(in my class) r juz so cute! Wahaha! They juz melt my heart again n again everytime i saw dem.. *-* haha :P buden haven't get much of chance to chat wif them.. their laughter n smiles comes juz so naturally. n their attractiveness n sparkles shines out juz simply becoz it was full of glee!! haha how i wish i can live wif such enthu. n touch others wif the sparkles n youthful energy from my smiles n laughter. I was like "huh" when they laugh n smiled at me when i dunno wad the hell i did..lol (i was askin them for msn add-y)

Haha.. still managed to understand all the topics for now :D poor Wan n Shu Ling.. they can't get the maths n physics concepts yet cause they hadn't have a strong background.. hope they buck up n never give up yahs?

Hmm wad else... lol getting impaitent to blog.. its hard 2 type on a bed.. Hmm how abt ending my entry wif a little wish for everyone?(to showw how noble i m ;D)

LoL.. Hope everyone will meet their beloved ones from their heart of hearts. n get some romance in the midst of all the BoRedOm, stREssS, AimLeSsnEss, ComPlIciTy n FuStRaTioNs that may lurk in their day to day lifes... hehe.. well actually thats my wish :P Alrite den..

Good Nite!

Haiz.. How come like that.. my bad my bad

2005-05-31T10:44:00.000+08:00

Juz finished my project work. Luckily my teammates are quite frenly. Emailed him the project.

Omg.. Kuok n Elaine waited for me and was late as a result.. my bad my bad.. i forget to tell shan to help me to pass the message to them... i was so tired from sickness tat i have forgotten... haiz.. hope they wun hold it against me...

:( i tink i will be sick for tommorrow... should i go n risk sickness on thursday? or should i stay? haiz.

High Fever..

2005-05-31T06:11:00.000+08:00

Woah... juz woke up again. Been sleeping for lik 27 hours in two days... Went to c a doc. yest... he said tat i have a mild fever of onli 37.5 degrees.. i have no idea buden i felt tat he didn't insert the ear thermometer properly.. n that im quite sure im having a high fever.. took medicine n went back to sleep...

Woke up soaked in sweat.. my clothes, my arms, my head n hair all soaked. I was lik numb all over n couldn't see. There were black spots all over n they covered about 80% of my vision. Went to the toilet n fainted halfway, banging into something which i didn't noe.. lucky my mum was around.. she helped me out to the sofa. Man.. i thought i was dying.

After regaining my vision n my consciousness n drowning down water, i fell asleep again.

Fainted the second time around 11pm when i went to the toilet again. This time i fell onto the floor. Sat on the floor for minutes till my vision recovered again. Den took my temperature when i got better.. 39.1 degrees.. knowing that, i tried not to sleep cuz if i sleep, my temperature will raise again. 40.0 degrees will cause permenant damage to the brain n body 41.0 degrees - 42 will cause death. Didn't have any high fever pills wif me so din't know whether i should call for an non-emergency ambulance. Buden took a cold shower to reduce the temperature.

Haiz.. suppose to meet Shan, Elaine n Kuok todae at 6.45am de... i have set the alarm then.. i was planning to apologise in person to say that im not going wif them.. buden i was simply too weak.. i fell asleep almost as soon as i switched off the alarm. Luckily i asked wl to help me tell Shan the other nite.

Gotta do project now for tmr's presentation. Hope that by not going to school todae won't hurt my credibility to my group members.

Woah.. Aching all over

2005-05-29T14:25:00.000+08:00

Woah.. im sick from yesterdae nite :( i tink im getting high fever again... why?? i get high fevers more often den i get fevers.. ouch my body aches.. juz popped another panadol.. took 5 todae

Hmm.. went for badmt tis morning wif weiloong, freddie, haochih n weichang.. den went home n did nothing constructive... den i decided to take a stroll around to breathe in some air. Took a shower n went downstairs wif my badmt racquet for some training wif myself... Haiz i sux on the morning... I tink theres something wrong wif me.. I can't see the shuttle properly n i seem so retard.. i can't focus, i can't count n i can't tink straight.. maybe its becuz of fatigue or maybe its because im sick but i juz feel lik a retard.. haha ><" Hmm.. nvm i have the determination not to be a retard..haha

Woot! Went home n watched tv till now.. zz.. im aching. my brain hurts n i feel so sleepy.. BUT I GOTTA DO MY PROJECT N HOMEWORK!!! i can do it tmr buden i guess i will do my maths n project reasearch todae. :P

I dun wanna be late. I dun wanna be late.. i dun wanna be a retard.. i dun wanna p*** ppl off.. nooo i muz change... WaHhh!!

good nite~